firstly, congrats Ginger! that's amazing!

secondly, i made a skin and i actually like it. a monumental moment for me, honestly as normally i hate everything i do. it's taken me a long time to remember that i need to enjoy my work, whatever that may be, and not anyone else.

I did a reply in 25 minutes which had an excellent reading level. 0-0 The writing lunatic inside me is extremely happy. I'm usually quite slow with replies.

Played my first official session of DnD tonight, and I didn't clam up awkwardly due to my shyness, even in a group of people I'm only kind of familiar with. I actually got everyone to bust out laughing not once, but twice with my idiot character's antics. Mission accomplished. 👏

Super smoothly just ran an event by ignoring all the procedures/stipulations I'm used to dealing with in previous sites and basically rearranging how I did it to work with the resources I had.

The team-up thread where all 4 event threads came together was the quickest I've ever seen a group thread go because everyone was so hype. It's been really fun to make previously rejected and derided ideas succeed and succeed hard, because it proves I was on the right track in the past before I got bullied off of it.

wolfe

that's amazing, wolfe! it's always great to be vindicated after your ideas are scoffed at. it's great that people were super hyped, too. that's half of the work there! when people are hyped and practically buzzing in their seats, it makes events so much more fun!

I finally out-memed the boyfriend. WHO'S THE DANK MEMEISTER NOW?

so i just finished writing all the summer prompts (which in itself makes me super proud b/c i'm usually shit at finishing these sort of things?? like idk the procrastination is strong in me.)

but anyway, i decided to total up the wc b/c i knew i had written some long shit and i was curious as how much that amounted to and it was about 19k? which is... um... ok i know a lot of people write way more than that, but idk, it's just... i'm someone who in the past has barely been able to write 2k in two months. it took me upwards of a month to write 6k recently. the fact that i wrote 19k in a month in a half is just...

idk i probably sound like i'm bragging, but i'm genuinely just so proud of myself that i was able to write so much. i've just never been good at applying myself to things. even things i enjoy! so the fact that i was able to this time, esp for a month, really just... makes me glow in happiness? idk, i'm just glad to know that i'm still improving.

Kinda silly, but...

It's been a long time since I last felt depressed! I'm like, 4-5 months self harm free too~