smilin on the outside
holdin 15+ years of unsettled rage on the inside

to the lady who was in here at 9am, screaming in my supervisors face over stupid shit, then insisting she was our best customer, how could we do this to her: never fuckin come back. you're poison.

Dec 16, 2018 2:34:41 GMT verbatim said:

im wine drunk and for once i dont feel like dying

then there's me, plum wine tipsy
legit crying to my bf over how good class 1-a from bnha is
if one eats, they all eat

selkie's pop/stars template is so fuckin sick we have decided to stan for the rest of our existence

something i've been thinking about for a few years, as it always seems to happen to me:

i am tired of being the "bad cop" of admin teams. like, somehow, i always end up falling into the role where i have to be the one to point out problems, or say when something is not okay. i also end up something like a guard dog, being the one to defend against rude people/annoyances. and like... that's fine. but it's not easy on me. if someone needs to step up and do it, i will. but i don't want to be seen as some heartless/nitpicky bitch. i am actually... ridiculously sensitive. and i end up crying over site related shit a lot more often than a person should. this is all online and shouldn't bother me irl, but... fuck, does it.

i've also been thrown under the bus so many times, to appease other members. like, oh i don't really have an issue with it myself, but.... and guess what? i'm the but, because i saw a very serious issue with a certain thing. it really eats away at me. i know there is usually a staff/member sort of divide, but this just makes it grow wider and wider.

i try my hardest to remain fair and impartial, and i work in the background to make sure everything comes off as kindly but as firmly as necessary... but i'm still the bad guy at the end of the day. the one who gives out all the bad news and the one who no one wants to interact with.

maybe i care too much about these things. but... staffing has become painful for me. so much so, that i'm hesitant to help out even when a friend asks me to.

i just want to have a good time and write, just like everyone else. i'm tired of ending up the bad guy.

y'ever just feel ur motivation and life essence slow drain from ur body

google search: how 2 turn off intrusive thoughts

netflix is apparently releasing a new series based on selena and i don't know how i feel abt it just yet

u ever listen to someone else talk shit and wonder where the hell they've been all ur life?

bring that bitter ass over here, fam. i been waitin for u.

is 5:30pm too early to call it a night? askin for meself.

i'm tired af

when ur friends randomly tell u they appreciate u...

*thru tears* that's that good shit