i've been chipping away very slowly for months on a new project - a jcink-based stamp collecting game where you can play games and play with writing prompts to earn pretty stamps of your favs from anime, games, etc etc (a lot like the card collecting games on dreamwidth). i think a forum space has such great potential for this kind of thing, BUT the catch is that it's a ton of work that i'm terrified won't pay off/nobody will be interested in it/i have NO idea how to find help for this kind of thing/etc/etc/etc

so it's just sort of a fun background thing for now until i figure out what to actually do ALJSHFLJAFSJLFAS
but hey, at least making the stamp albums is fun!!!

Every time somebody wants to buy a nerdy coaster or a job stone from me, I cry a little because the concept that somebody on the other side of the world wants something that I made with my hands? v.v Is this real?

My dream is to get a table at a convention or do some sort of live show somewhere, but the ultimate fear is that I won't be able to make the money back for the table. And also just that "I have no idea how this works" anxiety, of course!!

Working on a new project and there's a certain delight in knowing that I'm working with a team that's entirely my age/generation/etc, especially when I'm going through my obligatory "I feel so old, am I too old for x y and z things that I still feel are fun?" phase. Obviously it shouldn't really matter. Some of the most mature people I've met have been younger, but there's just a certain comfort.

y'all, I just want to say that I'm highly invested, stalking this, ready to consume all of your cookies, brownies, and coffee biscuits!!!!! final fantasy!!!!!

feels nice to be flexing my graphics editing muscles a bit again !

not me writing a nine page essay on why my band should cover running up that hill by kate bush, and preparing to submit it to them on friday with a pleading eyes emoji ...

I appreciate your taste, they're my fav kpop group.

My 'i'll listen to 1 song on repeat for a month straight and nothing else' song is currently Running Up That Hill by Kate Bush.  Stranger Things over here ruining me. v.v

"join the ren faire" they said
"it'll be fun" they said

me & the band melting and hiding away in the tiniest bit of shade we can find on this 90 degree day after each significantly less high energy than usual set ...

(i really do love performing at ren faires, today was just Rough)

me going the extra twenty miles to make sure my wip diluc oc isn't just diluc with a mustache taped to his face
:fear:

how do you oc???

I had the absolutely insane opportunity to collab with a huge name in the ffxiv cover world and I have been riding this high for an entire week since it was released. People like my voice?? v.v Never been so motivated to record record record.

One day I'll write words again ... I swear.

♪ o twin gods bless this land ♪
♪ to us treasure bestow ♪

This may not be an rp-related comment, but !!!  My brain is taking it that way because I've been thinking this a lot lately, too. 

I've been trying to get into 1x1 rping a bit more because there are a lot of ships that I've never had the chance to explore before (looking at you, every diluc ship under the sun), but man ... I've been in rp communities my whole life and am so used to having site plots and site settings to bounce off of, community chat hype, those common instances where I've tried to see if I can pspsps other players into necessary roles before NPCing, group plotting and threading, etc.

Approaching just a single person with nothing of real substance in mind besides "I'd love to explore these characters together" feels oddly overwhelming to me.  And I know it's silly because that's where the communication comes in, and it does always work out once we get rolling and chatting about what sorts of plots we like!  I think I just have this constant fear that I'm not bringing enough to the table immediately and a community/forum/etc to work with helps me feel more secure in that aspect.

I don't usually do this, but I'm really enjoying myself!