BEFORE
6.BEACH DAY

Before they began to hate
Everything the other did
Before they began to hate
And tell me nothing but negative things about the other

They were in love
I don't remember it
But they were in love
And I was their gift

They both show me
A photo they have
The both tell me
About the beach day

They were happy
I was having fun
They were happy
I was to young to remember

But I'm happy they made those memories

TAKE ME BACK
24.VACATION

Before he fell
We would go out on vacations
At least once a year
Take a trip
Just to somewhere
He loved to take me on experiences
Those are my favorite memories
Back before he fell
He was happy
But I was to selfish
to see it
Before it suddenly crashed
And we never went
On a vacation again

SILENCE
23.STARGAZING

I've never been good with quite
Because of all the demons in my brain
They love to grasp it
and crush it like glass

So I never spent time alone
Or if I did, It was full of work
Distractions
The stars are not a comfort

But occasionally
As I sit in the car
As you drive every night
I'll look at the stars
And find constellations

So I guess
They're nice with you

HAIR
5.HUMIDITY

If you asked for my biggest insecurity
It'd be my hair
It's big
It's thick
It's insanely frizzy

I'm told it's cause I ruined it
With dyes and heat
But even when I cut it all off
and left it alone
It's still insanely frizzy

At least during the summer
I can blame the humidity
Everyone's is frizzy
Just not as bad as my hair
It's INSANELY frizzy

But that's the only benefit of humidity, otherwise fuck summer heat

I'M HAPPY YOU'RE HAPPY
21.S'MORES

"My favorite food is S'more flavored things."
But he'd never experienced the real thing
So together my wife and I set up
A chance for him to make some
While we played DnD

It took money, and effort
But he cancelled
And he cancelled
And he cancelled

I never saw him again

He moved on to bigger things
Found a girl he loved
Found a love for the gym
He's finally happy

Which is good
But sometimes it's sad knowing
Friends can't be happy with you

LEMONADE STAND
25.LEMONADE

As all the cartoons showed
I wanted to open a lemonade stand
I asked my mother to help me make it

I set up a small table with a pitcher
And sat and waited humming a song
I sometimes would play with chalk

Turns out that no ones
Home during summer days
But that's okay

I ended up sharing
The lemonade with
My siblings
And got 25 cents!

STRANGERS
27.CAMPING TRIP

Sometimes I think
That parents don't realize
Their friends are strangers
To us children

So they get confused
When you go on a trip
And you want to be alone
Because despite them having lots of friends
You're all alone

This camping trip
I fought with mom
Because I didn't want to
Canoe with a stranger

Just because they're my age

But at least
I got to spend it
With the birds
And the grass
As I waited for the day to pass

ONE OF THE WORST DAYS
8.CONCERTS

One of my Best Friends
Favorite Memories
Is one of my worst

We went to a twelve hour concert
Of all her favorite bands
But I didn't know one

She was happy to mosh
So I was left to sit on the side
As I dealt with sensory overload

She flirted with others
As I was stuck with a cold
And strong cramps

Afterward we left to my relief
And I was forced to walk
Downtown Chicago and get lost

Looking for McDonalds
In the pouring down rain
It broke my phone in my pocket

She was happy and dancing
I was crying and upset
But she wanted it so I gave it

And when we finally got back
She posted on Facebook about it
My stepmom saw it

And grounded me for it