i s2g im actually so angry abt this fucking web application that i went and searched to quote this and say

fuck mindtap all my homies hate mindtap this is everything wrong with modern development WHY CAN'T I RIGHT CLICK -> OPEN A NEW WINDOW THATS ALL I ASK

(ik we're in a slot rn but we're gonna get cycled out after the next two purchases get processed so im just gonna buy it now ifthasok)



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ty! <3

this character is just supposed to be an npc man

so i destressed one day by try-harding on an essay assignment in a psych class and the prof (who tbf i've had previously) hyped me up in the feedback section & wants to talk to me outside of class abt my career plans

and as much fun as it is to mentally add a +1 to my follower count how am i supposed to look her in the eyes when i got here by setting fictional wlw on fire for funsies

me: [puts in 8-10 hour days mon-wed to clear my nights for thursday-friday to have two nights in a row Off from uni/family for the first time since february started]
2 different lab partners at 5:56pm & 6:41pm: hi can u help me w my report? its due at 11:59pm tonight so ur socially obligated to respond xoxo love u girlboss

i dont sympathize w/ the stock mad scientist character who gives up on humanity and goes off the deep end but yknow what i think i get where theyre coming from sometimes

AH YES THE "WRITE A BUNCH OF FUCKING PAPERS SO WE CAN GIVE YOU A GRADE THAT SAYS YOU CAN COMMUNICATE COHERENTLY" GEN ED REQUIREMENT MY BELOATHED

legit i wussed out of taking it one semester during my freshman year b/c i looked at the syllabus for it from the year prior and went jfc man i dont know if i can do this so like FELT. the covid years let me matrix dodge the Hell Prof that normally teaches the class and i still wanted to yeet myself into the Fucking Sun cdjkcjkllkj

i think the way i got through it was to just. give up on writing something good in favor of writing something as fast as possible. no thoughts head empty just sit down, aim to write x number of pages of actual garbage, work on something else for a bit or let it sit overnight, proofread & edit it enough 2 make sure that its coherent/follows the rubric/doesnt massively interpret the prompt & that everything's formatted, then marie kondo that shit out of my life by slamming it into turnitin and making it the professor's problem to deal with. if someone ever asks me about my english gen eds in a job interview im just gonna shove the breadsticks in my purse and run.

and ime my 'this is legit the most incoherent thing ive ever written in my entire life' tends to be like. a B- at minimum. bc most ppl don't write for a hobby and most stem majors in particular cannot write to save their lives. i had to co-write a lab report w/ a friend on the fancy full ride scholarship one time & her grammar structures (bless her) had me lookin at sections like 'damn bitch u live like this?' i s2g the bar is on the fucking floor and as long as u turn in something that's grammatically correct ur probably doing better than like 90% of the ppl in the class. i unlocked my manifestation power in 2021 and im manifesting 4 u rn fucking godspeed ok i believe in u.

so i swear im not saying this to be condescending im saying this as a 3.75+ gpa upperclassman formerly in a bio major crashing through ur ceiling whilst procrastinating on a physics exam bc lissen oh my god i fucking KNOW ok i fucking K N O W but if it helps 2 hear -

anecdotally speaking, the hardest-hitting classes in science majors - not the most difficult content-wise by a long shot, but the ones that people work the hardest to score the lowest in and/or straight up drop out of the most - are stereotypically the classes with no prerequisites. the [discipline] 101 classes. imo/ime mostly b/c (1) the transition into a new academic environment catches people off-guard and (2) how a lot of biology programs frontload the Hell Classes to clear out the herd of pre-med majors. i watched many a good man fall to chem 101 & bio 101. 

i cant promise itll get easier, nor do i think i could write an essay that would 100% guarantee a 3.75+ gpa if you read it, and the "y'know what fuck this" reaction i see from ppl who swap outta STEM is valid and understandable, but not all science is like bio i promise so if you legit love and have passion for it plsplsplsplsplspspsspplsssssssss don't let a single Hell Class and/or the idea of working your ass off in a Hell Class to barely pass and/or needing to take a Hell Class twice to barely pass scare you away from science - ESPECIALLY when you aren't doing poorly across the board. i aint gonna lie on pixel perfect dot gov and oh my God the Hell Classes are Hell to go through, but (observationally) once someone passes at least one Hell Class, they typically do better than just pass other Hell Classes. legit, i know someone who failed a Hell Class, took it again, passed it with flying colors the second time over, and hasn't had any trouble keeping their grades up since. (and, ftr, i'm not saying this to be condescending bc I Get It TM, but it would have saved me s o m u c h time if someone had fucking told me this before i started uni so imma just say it - studying smart instead of hard is a very real thing, and most people who do well from the get-go in STEM Hell Classes have the privilege to learn this before they get to college. if you are not one of those people, imo, the smartest way to study is to google 'scientifically proven study methods', and start playing trial and error with the ones that have names - study habits are a HUGE 'ymmv' situation, but i do best w/ active recall & the leitner system.)

and ime, once i got past The Great Filter classes, the ratio of fun to Hell profs/classes/classmates got SO MUCH better fdjkjfklds legit my upper level bio courses were around the level of "after lab the prof let us take home shark fetuses in jars" and "one time after class we all did the coke and mentos thing purely for the hell of it" SO LIKE IF U HAVE IT IN U TO KEEP TRUCKIN I THINK IT DOES GET A LIL BETTER

no matter what tho im genuinely cheering for u to do well aaaaa

had my first real day off since jenshin impact 2.5 dropped && finally got through yae's story quest

and ive never been so vindicated in my life on saving 90 wishes to insta-pull for her as soon as i had time after the patch dropped bc this girlboss gaslight gatekeep disaster gay of an immortal kitsune was made for the target audience of Me. 10/10 would simp again

p.s. - if you don't know what the above sentence means, i envy u

current level of adulting: "yeah i rly cant handle the stress of today being my birthday rn imma just reschedule it for tomorrow"

its truly tough out here being a girlboss

LOST 50/50 ON THE HUTAO RERUN AND COMMITTED TO WAITING FOR HER

LAST LIMITED WISH NOVEMBER 21, 2021

SHE'S HOME AND IT'S ALL FUCKING WORTH ITTTTTTTTTTTTT 

i'd like to personally nominate this whole EP to be the Niche Internet Micro-Celebrity anthem tbh

someone help gods using me as a plot device in 2022 and now im trapped in the dynamic between being the student who doesn't bomb exams unless the professor fucks up and a professor who Fucked Up

i'm so tired of being the tortured love interest on the precipice of a villain arc why can't i be the plucky ya protagonist