Thank you both. *hugs* It's definitely something I know will go away but feeling like the third-wheel just sucks. And it feels like it's flipping between either being IRL or with my hobbies. Uugggh... Only thing helping is I have some good friends (and a husband) that are here for me and I know I'm loved. But mentally, brain just doesn't want to accept it. 

As someone that's normally the rock for people, I just need to tell myself I can rely on people too and don't always need to be in that position...

Been getting major "I'm the side character in a world made for the main characters" vibes lately. 

I hate it.

And there's the shit show again. *sigh*

Honestly, I usually have no issue talking about roleplaying with most of my social circles (sans work). Most of my family and friends already know I play D&D, and thus, even if they aren't as sure with the written form of roleplaying, they still somewhat understand what's going on, just a different medium. (Hell, my mom and dad both tell me to tell my current group hi if I'm over at their house lol). My husband also RPs (though more through MMOs - WoW, FFXIV, GW2, etc) and also knows some of the people in the groups I roleplay with.

As I finish writing this up though, it makes me realize a lot of people I know absolutely don't give a hoot, but also still ask me how my games/roleplay friends are doing from time to time. *insert Owen Wilson wow meme noises here or surprised pikachu face*

Work systems are still down while I'm WFH today.

So, going through super basics of coding in the meantime. Huzzah.

As someone in the accounting field, I felt this lol. I did this way too much during college. :'D

I got the brain cell today. However, brain cell is making me upset due to overthinking.

Ugh.

I do have those days sometimes. but I cannot sell the one I do not have today. 

....does anyone have the brain cell today? will buy brain cell.

I'd have to say I am mirror something of the stat heavy site sentiments. Like I already deal with a job that is heavy in numbers (accounting) and I already love my D&D. I do not need that again on a site.

Otherwise, I'm usually pretty open to most things.

I realized I dislike when there's no light or dark toggle. I'm the weirdo that actually likes light mode a lot of the times lol

Creating a forum is a lot of work, but I'm glad that this new forum we are working on has a nice, little team going for it now. Sure, there's about 5 of us, but that honestly I think helps from keeping any one person from getting too overwhelmed. We have the lore person, the plot person, the QA person (to make sure the first two makes sense), and two of us at the helm giving ideas, support, and project management. sadly no jcink coder lol

Maybe it's coming from several roleplays where a very small admin team (forums, discord, FFXIV, etc), but I definitely appreciate there being a lot of help for the future of staffing. Like I said, it helps not everything from falling on one person. And I hope, fingers crossed, when we do open, members can see that all of us have put love and care into it.

Sleep take me. 

Aw shit, I still need to work.