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Post a Random Thought written Jul 16, 2024 21:36:59 GMT via mobile
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Jul 16, 2024 20:33:30 GMT said:
So today I found out one of my friends, who had suddenly been acting real shitty towards me, believed I had leaked some private group conversations...because a mutual friend of ours stirred the pot and said they totally had evidence of me doing it. (No, you can't see it, but it's super duper real.)

So now, weeks later, he found out that I had not, in fact, been leaking private group conversations and apologised to me for treating me that way. (I had been confused by his sudden behavioural change before then.)

But I'm a shitty person and can't accept his apologies, so now we're no longer friends.

._. Why am I like this



I wouldn’t accept the apology either nor forgive my friend if this happened to me. You’re not wrong for that, it’s your ex-buddy who fucked up here, as well as the mutual friend (hopefully now also an ex-friend).

If you really wanted to stay friends then sure, keep it cool and casual between each other to build up that trust again. But if you don’t wanna do that, then you don’t have to. And they’re just gonna have to accept that actions = actual consequences.
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I Don't Wanna Be in Love written May 22, 2024 3:39:34 GMT
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Prompt 3 - Beloved

“It was more like he found me,” she started to explain. “Found us. I didn’t ask him to stay but he just… Did. And then Dante got here and we just stuck together after that. I dunno how else to explain it. He’s just been there for us.”

Vincent was quiet for a few moments before finally he said in a quiet voice, “I would have been there for you.”

Tammy looked away from him guiltily. It felt like the clamp around his heart tightened more. Why was she doing this to him? To torture him? To grind him further into the dust? A foreign feeling settled down over him that made it harder to breathe, harder to think. Harder to keep himself grounded.

“I would have given you everything if you had just let me,” he added, louder now. “If you had just talked to me-”

“I was scared!” Tammy countered. “I was young, and scared, and I wasn’t thinking. I ran away from home for fuck’s sake, I wasn’t exactly the beacon of good choices back then. It wasn’t your job to fix that.”

“But I could have helped,” Vincent blurted out. “I could have made things easier. We could have done it together, like we always did. But you didn’t let me. You left me here. And now you come back, thinking you can walk in and pretend like nothing happened. Like I wouldn’t be here ready to get fucked up over you all over again-”

His vision suddenly blurred and his eyes stung as he squeezed them tight. Everything felt the same as it did before. As it did the first time she vanished and broke his heart. Except now she was here, right in front of him. And it hurt so, so much.

He was stupid to believe that, at the end of the day, he had been anything special to her.

But he had thought that everything between them had been wholly and uniquely theirs. That for two and a half months out of every year, they could finally be with the only people who understood each other; themselves.

She threw that all away. She turned her back on all of it. On him. For just over sixteen years she couldn’t even bother to look at him. How in the hell was he supposed to take that?

Suddenly, her soft hand grazed his cheek, and her thumb wiped away moisture from the leaking corners of his eyes.

“Don’t do that,” her voice wavered. “Don’t you dare cry over me now, Vincent Fox…”

“What makes you think this is my first time?” he whispered back. “Over you or anyone else?”

After all, she wasn’t his beloved anymore. And hadn’t been in a long, long time.