as said on the tin. i dunno why. but sometimes, more often than not. i'll write this really good post that i'm proud of and eager to put out there. but then i get overwhelmed with his mass of anxiety awaiting to read my rp partner's reply. like, i don't get it? what am i nervous about? it's like i get worried my post will have consequences? i really don't understand it. maybe it ties to my actual social anxiety.
but i get super nervous when people read and reply to my posts sometimes. then i end up in this situation where i don't wanna read it, so i ghost my rp partner for like a week before i manage to get the courage to read and reply! it's frustrating cause i love to write and interact and create these fun stories with other people! but also, anxiety is terrible and i tend to judge my writing skills and i suddenly don't wanna write for a bit.
any clue what causes this? and how to handle it when it gets to be a hindrance? (without therapy, preferably. because i don't wanna talk to my therapist about how i can't write on an online roleplay forum because i get anxious sometimes LOL)
edit: it may help that i also have ADHD and autism, and that may tie into my difficulties.