sometimes it just feels like everything, no matter how ostensibly productive, is some elaborate form of procrastinating until you die somehow or other

but anyway how you doing

for someone who is typical in almost no given element i sure do get self-conscious and upset about being weird

me: should i post this template for others to use?
me to me: nah, don't let people see this monstrosity of a code, use it once and code a new template
me: you got me there