i've straight up ignored reading advertising rules for at about 5 months. I made a little place for a list of sites not to visit if the admin came in to complain. So far one site is on that list.

i'm regretting making my rp site more convoluted than it had to be, sigh

Every time I get sick, I start to get lazy and slow. Since I've been dealing with chronic pain and gastrointestinal issues for a month, I've slacked on everything. I feel guilty over it but really, I need to remember Staff jobs don't come before health. I just wish my conscience would remember that.

It's disappointing when you think you make a connection with a member, but then they leave you at the drop of hat.

I dream of the day a Member just says "Here is a Schemitc Blueprints picture of a Skin Idea I have"

Due to the way ProBoards formerly operated groups, I sometimes try to edit my members' profiles to try and assign their groups because that used to be how it was done. x.x I get into profile editing area and just sit there like "Wait... this isn't right."

i feel called out-

Sometimes... I don't want to admin. Sometimes I just want to be a member.

I try to spread positivity, but sometimes people really get under my skin. When I'm staff, I want members to see me as a friend, not an enemy. So I keep a nice face on a majority of the time, and try not to blow up. But I will admit, one time, this guy kept butting in on me and my members conversation about their app, and his comments were all super judgmental and unproductive, so I muted him in all the channels for a bit. He left because of it too. I feel bad about it, since that was kinda inappropriate of me, since I didn't even warn him, but I just burst.

I really think duo staff teams are the most successful, especially when you have an outgoing admin paired with a get things done admin. you know like someone who is good with coding, is the backbone, dedicated and then someone with a big personality. I've only ever staffed with personal friends and I've always talked behind the scenes to give this kind of dynamic. idk just me?

uuuugh Why is it so hard to work, be in 2 dnd games, and run a website all the same time? I miss not playing Dnd, or like.. not working... or just being a teen... you know what. screw everything I wanna be a Teen again.

So someone just popped into our discord and started calling out Mommy/Mom as they were talking.

Sure I'll be your Mom. Just don't expect me to clean up after you.    

I'm gonna be honest here, I have no clue what the tone of this post is, and it's bothering me lol.

It's sounds kinda light-hearted, like "Yeah sure! I'll be your mom lmao! Just don't expect me to clean up after you! lol lol lol!"

But part of me also reads it as more of a irritated/sarcastic tone, like "Fine. I'll be your mom. Just don't expect me to clean up your mess you irresponsible bastard." 

Maybe I just hear it that way because of the Vegeta.