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i don't get angry when i'm pissed; i'm the eternal optimist.
been playing a fair amnt of cyberpunk red w/ some friends for the past month or two, and i'd not be opposed to smth futuristic/cyberpunk dystopia.

i'm also back on my wolf 359 bullshit again so adding it to the above - give it two major settings: space (spaceships orbiting xyz planets for various studies and research) and earth (cyberpunk, run by corporations to a near outer worlds level degree who have funded above space projects.) only humans and A.I., with maybe (company secret) synthetic humans because damn i'd kill to write an arc similar to lovelace's existential crisis.



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this thread was a last minute idea that threw a massive curveball at my timeline plans for this character's arc but GOD do i feel vindicated

It brings a question that he wants more time to ponder: something simultaneously as large and as simple as how far is the son of saints willing to go to promise deliverance and salvation?

Being a figure—everything he wanted in the shape of a hero with purpose—never lets you have something of your own, ultimately. However small it might be.

Lucas takes a deep breath then, and the fact he's thinking so damn hard about letting go of the past to get the security of if God, fate, whatever gave a damn, he thinks, says enough about the choice he chooses.


this monologue was spliced in between prose but it honestly might be my favorite line in the post so i'll put it all in one

"You know, I came here hoping to get an answer for something. I figured that if I got that answer, I'd feel more in control of things. Know what I should do next, or who I'm supposed to be. Reassurance, maybe, that every choice I've made will be worth something to someone.

I think I'll figure it out. Whatever happens, our fate's up to us, yeah?"



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sometimes you just gotta write a detached immortal with a god complex. y'know, just for the self-care.

But then he pleads, and Marguerite Reiner always did prefer it when men beg.
After all, present a person with power, and they'll eventually long to weaponize it. It's simply the way of the world, and it's why we have history books.



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i don't get angry when i'm pissed; i'm the eternal optimist.
it genuinely terrifies me that my prof for my european cinema class was able to grade and comment on a paper i submit earlier today less than 4 hours later

at the same time though getting a perfect mark and having him say my review of the film was a god review (regardless of if the typo was likely intentional) when i literally just crammed it in the span of 7am-12pm today, day of the deadline, when i watched the movie at x2 speed, and the lowest grade he gave was a 7.5 did wonders to my god complex



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highkey shout out and god bless communities and members that trust their staff. it's a gem to see and experience when faith is put on the team and community. after all, we're all here to have a good time and take care of each other, yeah?



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not exactly my last post but it was from last night and this thread makes go through several different stages of :hyperbongocat:


Jack moves to shove him again. Time's running out—

but the question of whodunnit stands, and her ( lack thereof ) answers pens a narrative change, and so shifts the question into, what is utterly simple:

how far is he willing to go for h̵͢i̷͟s͘͜ cause?

The answer, Lucas finds, for someone who's spent a lifetime chasing doing what's right, is incorrect by the words of judge, jury, executioner.

And decides.




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smth akin to soul eater or noragami. ppl being paired together to exorcise/purge spirits and demons, where one person literally turns into the other's weapon? forgotten gods hidden beneath the surface? having to combat internal demons alongside external ones? yes.



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being cursed with a brain that can and will go into autopilot very easily means that i can and would accidentally send a picture of xiao from genshin impact to my prof instead of the thesis abstract proposal i should be submitting to them at 5:48am.

the only thing that stopped me is realizing the file name in the canvas page was "aaaaa.jpg" instead of my standard uni submissions file name of [Course Code] LastName_Submission.pdf RIGHT before i hit the submit button



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tfw the best way to bring your character's muse back from the war is by (temporarily) killing off their love interest

What do you want, Cecilia?


It’s a question with a definitive answer, in most cases. To be the one that wins, above all else. To be feared and to be understood. She wants to exist as more than the sum of her parts, to leave behind a great legacy, and to never be forgotten, no matter the cost. What Cecilia St. Romain wants is, inherently, damn more than anyone can give her, and she has never once tried to apologize for it.

But the question—what does she want—falls short in the current situation, and she swallows when she notes how cold Darlington feels beneath her. Not right. Winterbourne’s suggestion leaves a gravity in the silence—to use one’s venom to ensure survival, all at the base price of forever with the fine print. And what she wants is—


+ a personal favorite trope of "character calls back to something incredibly insignificant in the greater scheme of things to stand for their spiteful motivation in a life or death situation"

”This is not my choice to make,” she hisses out as he looks at her—devastatingly unfair, with those brown eyes. Even now, she can note the magic that compels an answer, and she wants to argue and she wants to fight and she wants him to— ”What I want is for you to—“

—and everything around her feels so suddenly, drastically, small, and Cecilia finds she does not like this feeling as it continues—

—she doesn’t like it as much as the thought of being the one left behind, and it’s too fucking soon for that

He still owes her a goddamn apology for the cathedral.

”—just don’t go out bleeding on the floor, Iain.”



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its literally still enrollment period until the 31st WHY does my prof want everyone to submit 250 word abstract pitches on thesis plans when our thesis starts next school year by 5pm today, the 29th im gonna scream into a bag



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How often do you guys activity check/what's ideal? I know activity checks can be a strain, especially with a smaller staff, and it's always a pain in the butt to clean up, but I also know that I get very turned off when a site doesn't look very clean and has a lot of dead accounts. We're probably going to go for less often, but what's standard practice?
probably a bit more unconventional/inconsistent, but we base it off how the community is currently looking. if there’s a notable disparity between active members : registered members for reasons outside the conventional (i.e. holiday season, general start of finals season when a good amnt of the memberbase are uni students, etc.), then it’s time to start discussing / planning an AC. there’s a sweet spot we hit with “bi-monthly” (see: after every two months), but again, it’s more based on pulse checking the community than a solid schedule. rl happens, rp’s a hobby, and all that.

the hardest condition we have is simply: leaving the discord server = automatic archiving, clearing of claims, whole deal. no ifs, no buts. if a staffer isn’t informed that it’s a temporary leave / something similar, then it’s safe to assume that it’s a legitimate leave. 

other than that? the standard drill. members post in a thread a link to an IC/non-comms post for characters they want to keep. canons require two posts to signify they are both (1) active and (2) are committed to the “canon” part of the character. non-canons need only one. posts can only be from the past ~2 months to keep it a bit more lax, but still a check. drop the link, get cleared from the archive/deletion hammer. don’t drop the link/state that a character is to be archived/deleted? done. claims cleared and everything. we also have a hiatus system where a person can inform staff if they can’t make the check due to xyz, and their need for the ac would either be (1) waived entirely or (2) lowered in requirements. the moment the person posts with any character whatsoever though, during that period of hiatus, they’re subject to the check.

honestly, it all ultimately sums up to: give allowance when allowance is needed, but know when to hold ground. 



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tick, tick BOOM was a really gr8 movie to watch.
phenomenal music, each song was insane, and vanessa hudgens really ate it up.
andrew garfield? we love a man who can sing, his face? a chair tbh.

in all srsness 10/10 recommend watching tick tick boom if u like andrew and musical shit


legally obligated to ^^^ this bc by god andrew was so good in it and the musical was an absolute gem. still so sad we dont have any way of listening to the og superbia songs

also RENT crawled so tick, tick... BOOM could fly fr fr



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i don't get angry when i'm pissed; i'm the eternal optimist.
sometimes, you wanna think up concepts for characters/character dynamics in a tabletop. other times, you just let the dice decide your background and overall fate.

the latter is how we get smth like “cyberpunk kpop idol sensation is not over his ex-boyfriend, a ballistics specialist and demolitions expert of the criminal underground, and sends a copious amount of texts to his old phone. which may or may not belong to someone else now. so said idol is being catfished and therapied by someone they don’t know, who they think is their ex-boyfriend (who they don’t know is a demolitions expert), while said ex-boyfriend knows absolutely nothing about any of this”

i’m playing the ex-boyfriend while my friend is playing the idol, and we, along with the dm, have not stopped laughing about this comedy of errors since

play cyberpunk RED yall
last edit on Jan 27, 2022 23:06:03 GMT by CEL



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