frankly, hide out in a bomb shelter and hope my ocs don't realize who i am. i like doomed by the narrative arcs and characters too much that ill be the one doomed by the narrative in this kinda scenario.

otherwise, book the next plane ticket out of this hellscape of a city the damn second i hear there's an extremist cult around. that kinda thing tends to be a dealbreaker for choosing a place to live, idk.

this || close to deciding to forego fcs entirely and re-enter the era of physical description boxes all because fc hunting is driving me insane (i won't do it, but it's still a tempting thought)

im not sure at what world level/SOL3 phase it becomes available, but you can lower your SOL3 phase to your previous one in the menu if enemies are too difficult for the meantime! also like, legit, if you need help in building feel free to shoot me a dm. i love building characters whether it be here or hsr, so i would happily help out!

CONGRATSSSSSS

gonna be real i write like so many friggin' solos between my characters AND sometimes daydream delusional pairings and dynamics between them AND have taken my own wanted ads when i need to move plots, so hell yeah let's go, less work for me with all the benefits baybeeeeeee

tfw i spent the past week resigning myself to the fact id have to use a significant portion of my next paycheck to pay my credit card bill tomorrow. got my credit card bill right now, and you're telling me i've overpaid from tracking my expenses so much for my past few bills that the bank now owes /me/ instead of vice versa?

like goddamn.

UNDERSTANDABLE. i got jinhsi on a one-off 10 pull and was fully expecting to have to hit late pity for changli bc of it, but here we are, so i hope you get the same luck! jinhsi won me over so much in the new act, she's so good. here's to hoping you get the phoenix wife too!!

i had 39 pulls, 50/50, 0 pity and a dream, she came home in 20, LETS GOOOO

now to hunt echoes for her....

playing nobody wants to die rn and where did this game even come from? sci-fi neo-noir cyberpunk that gives with a disco elysium-esque plot is so good, i love indie games

on one hand, it's honestly kind of sweet that my supervisor had pestered the office nurse to get me a consultation over my exhaustion at work. on the other, when will this man realize like 90% of the cause is the fact i get to work at 7am and get home at 9pm because of my daily commute, all because he insists on us going to office 5 days a week while the other teams can work from home, all so he can look more responsible in the eyes of the higher ups.

i actually have lost count of how many times ive pinpointed the daily commute as the reason to him. i have also lost count of the number of times my teammates voiced similar concerns to him.

(2) on what desmond said. you aren't a shitty person because you can't & won't accept the apology. you're a person who got hurt because someone you valued as a friend betrayed your trust and believed the worst about you, all because someone else said so. you aren't under any obligation to accept that, especially when he didn't try to have a conversation with you about the matter, and instead jumped the gun on hateful behavior so suddenly. i've been there. it hurts,  it'll make you mad, and my hot take is, honestly? someone who does value you as a friend would make an effort to understand what happened on both sides, at the very least, rather than act with impulsive cruelty. 

again, speaking from experience: the real friends worth sticking with wouldn't do something like that to you. because they actually give a damn about you and care, and anyone who immediately jumps to believe the words of someone else's questionable hatespeech regarding you just has preconceived notions they want to believe true. once they're given a (in their view) valid reason to feel vindicated for how they feel, they'll do it. it's why the biggest combatant to gossip is, fundamentally, communication and empathy. anyone who has a problem with you, or disagrees with you to the point of it boiling into poor behavior, especially if they're meant to be a friend, would speak up on it directly.

a hard to swallow pill for some, but like, a friendship, like any relationship, requires people willing to talk about their problems, engage in healthy confrontation and discussion, and understand just wtf is going on and how to move forward. if the person won't do that with you, and only apologizes after they're proven wrong through some other means, then i think that says enough. 

tl;dr, don't feel bad for refusing to accept the apology. that's just knowing you deserve better. he broke your trust. that takes time and effort to rebuild. you are under no obligation to give it freely, and immediately, after that kinda display of behavior. if he really does mean his apology, he should understand that. if the friendship mattered, work will be done to prove that. if not, then the unfortunate fact of life is that sometimes that'll happen. i know i'm bitter over years of my wasted youth on some people, but you learn to move on. and that doesn't make you a shitty person at all.

my life is a comedy of stumbling my way upwards because there is a deep irony in the fact i was supposed to transfer to a new agency, as per my program's rules, only to be recommended by the big boss man himself to stay in this agency at a heavier/more call the shots position. i wanted to get out. this is a call for help.