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i don't get angry when i'm pissed; i'm the eternal optimist.
accepted a gig to get paid for dm-ing a dnd game in a december con and that alongside the 2 publications i'm writing for + my solo trip in a few weeks is making my last stretch of the year look s t a c k e d with touching grass

honestly super excited? let's heckin go
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Johanes Angeleri did not come here for simple tourism. That much is clear in the way his nose scrunches up, cheap booze that could fuel a mecha too strong on the senses and too unremarkable to be considered worth the assault. He'd wager the bar pays around eighty tones a shipment, and still gets cheated at the price tag. The floor is rotten and the guests down on their luck; the music shrills and in a simple, absolute word, he'd describe the speakeasy as a lost cause. Just another parasite, leeching away at whatever corpse remains of a once-brilliant archipelago.

Is this really what Choice gives you?

Johanes almost wants to laugh at the thought.


editing so as to not double post, but i rlly do not want to psychoanalyze why despite feeling so washed with writing these days, writing this specific brand of Pragmatic Capitalist With Complicated Feelings Regarding His Heritage (TM) comes so easily to me

In Olympos, you get exactly what you are given — more than, if you prove worthy of what you grasp for. Action repays action, debt incurs debt, and labour will see more than sunlight, so long as you have gone above and beyond to make the outcome yours. To those stuck in daydreams and fantasies of what could be, this is hell. To those willing to do all they damn well can for the present and the future alike, this is heaven.
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...is it considered bad form to reuse old writing for character apps/threads? i wouldn't just totally copy-paste of course but i'm wondering if anyone would care (i feel like i know the answer but :thinking:)
i dont think there's anything inherently wrong with it, esp in rp. if it makes your life easier w/ writing, why not? it's still your writing, EOD, and if it helps get the posts and/or app done, then that's a net benefit to yourself, your rp partner, and the site



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still not used to having enough money that i can seriously debate running away to another country for a week to watch a concert. it has been just a little over a year since ive gotten out of broke uni student hell. it still hasnt sunk in.


update: debate over, bought the flight tickets and concert tickets + reserved bookings for my accommodations yesterday for olivia rodrigo's concert and i am SO excited. GUTS came out at the most relatable time for me and helped me get through shitty drama eerily similar to that album's whole deal late last year and i need to see the grudge live for, like, personal catharsis i think it'll be a spiritual awakening tbqh

also first time doing big things independently! and its for a week! aaaaaAAAAAA
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still not used to having enough money that i can seriously debate running away to another country for a week to watch a concert. it has been just a little over a year since ive gotten out of broke uni student hell. it still hasnt sunk in.
I grew up in poverty and I still can't help but compare everything to the price of bread. It's like... I have enough money now, but I still look at like a pair of jeans and go, "Oh, I could buy bread for a year with that kind of money."

Shedding one's poverty ways is a journey of a thousand miles, and you're loathe to afford the money for proper shoes for it.
aaaa honestly thank you so much for this? yeah its very much that feeling. ive been waffling on whether i should do it or not for a few days because of the consistent worry about money and costs (almost to the point of deciding not to despite how much of a net benefit it is for me on a personal level), and you've really put it into words why.

im pretty 80/20 set on going now since its smth i havent done at all before and always wanted to do, but YEAH the thought mentality can hit a lot sometimes.



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still not used to having enough money that i can seriously debate running away to another country for a week to watch a concert. it has been just a little over a year since ive gotten out of broke uni student hell. it still hasnt sunk in.
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survived 2 shitty weeks to now get accepted into a writing project i applied for / thought i wouldnt get into from like two months ago LETS GOOOOOO



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And with this teaser on how our magic system works, guys, gals, and nb pals — we are happy to announce that our invitation form is now live. It should only take 5-10 minutes maximum, as most of the questions are multiple choice. Those that aren’t, meanwhile, are mostly optional as they help us get a feel for potential player expectations.

REBELSONG will be launching next week, and we will be parsing through responses to the form and sending out Discord invites in the days leading up to our launch. Thank you all for the interest in our unhinged little interest check and setting, and we can’t wait to write with y’all!
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sneak peek of our header


sneak peek of our guidebook


sneak peek of our profile


sneak peek of our post rows







No fancy graphics this time since we're doing something different for this update, but here are some teasers for the skin of Rebelsong! Our current aim for a launch date is mid-August, with late August as the extended timeframe. But, as of right now, what's left for us to do is write up and refine setting / location lore and the magic system, then transfer all the written lore from our google docs to the site proper. Right now, I'd say we're at a solid 65-70% progress bar for the meantime.

For curious and keen-eyed onlookers, you'll notice that the skin teaser markets Rebelsong as "an original private diesel-steampunk animanga roleplay", and yes! You would be right. As mentioned in the quick interest check, Rebelsong is intended to be a small-scale, character-driven site whose setting allows for plenty opportunities for plot, chaos, conflict, anarchy, drama, what have you if players pursue, instigate, and wish to enable them. To maintain this plan for Rebelsong, as well as ensure a good environment for likeminded roleplayers and writers, we're adopting a private model with a semi-private launch.

What does that mean?

When Rebelsong is ready for release, or a week beforehand, we will release a form here for interested parties that need to be filled out to completion (we'll try to keep it straightforward and short!). The form will be used by me and my co-staffer to assess who would may be good fits for the site, its community, and its rules as a whole. Once we've vetted and considered you a good fit, we'll be in touch in Discord, where you will receive a link to the site and server.

After the first month or so, the form will be closed and members of the site will be able to invite their friends, after communication with and greenlight from staff. And so goes a game of invite-telephone.

Concrete information on the launch date will be given in our next update, where we showcase the magic system!

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lost my genshin 2023 concert childe phone charm last week in the ether and reordered it again, got the package today, and its a whole ? ? ? ? ? arsenal ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? of childe genshin impact merch ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ?

i rarely even BUY merch, much less anything thats not a charm, what am i supposed to do with 3 childe pins and a childe standee 😭
Sharing is caring, maybe you have a sibling or parent who could do with something cute in their life.

this is earnestly a rlly sweet sentiment that unfortunately can't apply since i'm an only child whose parents question the value of anime and games in the first place LOL, but i appreciate the suggestion



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lost my genshin 2023 concert childe phone charm last week in the ether and reordered it again, got the package today, and its a whole ? ? ? ? ? arsenal ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? of childe genshin impact merch ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ?

i rarely even BUY merch, much less anything thats not a charm, what am i supposed to do with 3 childe pins and a childe standee 😭
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in a really simple and one-note term: stubborn. stubborn with their values, stubborn with their beliefs, stubborn with their causes, stubborn with their wants. characters who, when told that they are wrong, that they can't do something, that a situation is impossible — respond, unapologetically with "fuck you, i will". i love writing them fail; i love writing them cling with every ounce of their being to something that will destroy them in the long run; i love writing their decisions biting them in the ass; i love writing them sacrifice; i love writing them succeed, against all odds. most of all, i love writing them having to grapple with what happens when they're proven so terribly, horribly wrong. the sunk-cost fallacy is SUCH a fun thing to play with for me, and it gives me a lot of opportunity to see how that'll impact my characters and what they're gonna do about it. characters who toe the line between "selfish" and "self-sacrificial" with a knack for controversial choices that would likely result in who even knows how explosive of twitter discourse.

for a less pretentious answer:
‐ characters who are an absolute hot mess disaster of a human being. awful people made of more vices than virtues, self-loathing sad people who can't help but do more things wrong than do things right. 
- pragmatic women who are either desperately ambitious or desperately yearning to survive, bar none. women who have had to make difficult choices and roll with the punches, separating their personal feelings for what needs be done. women with a myriad of regrets but can't afford to process them as regret, not as long as something needs be done. women who desperately want to be good, but for some reason they can't — they don't think they'll ever be able to reach that Good they want to be.
- doomed by the narrative twinks. usually brooding, stoic, and serious. usually quietly idealistic, in love with the possibility of making the world better, whatever the cost, but they have to be in an unforgiving setting for this to work for me. men who are made so wholly undone by love — of a place, of a person, of a people, of a cause, etc. 
- fiercely, fiercely independent characters who want to demand change, pave the path for it in whatever way they have to. characters who are more prepared to die than they are to live, who imagine sunrises they'll never see, or believe they'll never see. characters who try to do the good thing, the right thing, the morally Correct thing for them, only for that to be disastrous, but fuck, is it the only thing they have left to believe in. but the good thing they see may not be the collective Good Thing as a whole.
- loyalist cynics with bloody hands; willing to be the bad guy, do the awful thing, do the morally reprehensible thing, because someone needs to do it. soldiers who have made themselves weapons, with nowhere else to go, no sense of self beyond a corrupt or cannibalizing system that has no love for them at all.



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