been listening to mila tequila's complete retelling of jersey shore as smth mindless to listen to

i forgot how truly dramatic (and iconic) the early eps were

happy happy new year pixel perfect peeps 🎉🎉
wishing you good health + happiness!

merry christmas and happy holidays everyone!

five good things that happened to me this year:

• made a full year in therapy. it was a very big step for me, and i've come super far. onto bigger and better things!
• got straight a's this past semester. blood, sweat, and literal tears went into it so! very proud
• finally got some time to get back into writing. i really needed the creative outlet
• cut some toxic relatives out of my life finally (thank you therapy!). i am genuinely better off without them, and a lot healthier mentally for it
• pet so many cats this yr. my friend's mom has 15 on her own and they were all so affectionate and sweet.

currently playing fe: engage cos i got it as an xmas giftie
though i probably should get around to playing more rf5...

animanga is actually not my preferred medium. i don't have one! i flop back and forth between animanga and real life all the time, because for me, each one has very specific genres/site types that i like. i know that, in theory, both could do either. it really is just the face type that changes. but in my head, i think different types suit one or the other. i don't know how to explain it!

i've been in my animanga era for a few years now, though, but it's not like i feel tethered here. i just have a bigger pull to the faces currently. they're a bit easier for me to vet, and i can imagine some characters a bit easier in animanga form (though that doesn't exactly stop me from mentally fancasting some with rl faces. i do that on occasion for fun). i am pretty picky though, i think, so rl is a bit harder in that regard. it also does have a bunch of rules, which was previously mentioned. age limits, being mindful of their reputation, etc. which, chill. i don't usually mind. but some people get weird about wanting to use faces under 18 and that icks me out.

animanga is fun and that is why i stay, but the site type itself is what really makes or breaks my decision-making, not really the medium.

i will keep saying it: if you are my writing partner, i will offer you my roster before anyone else. if you show the mildest interest in someone i'm writing, you will receive them wrapped in a bow, served on a silver platter. i want you to have them. i'm for realsies. if i didn't, i wouldn't offer.

do not second guess it. do not question it. i am obsessed with you and want to monopolize you too

well, my original goals were as such:

- continue on my road to successful slow burns (cue more misunderstandings and painful pining, thx)
- use all the beautiful fcs, no one can stop me, not even myself
- don't think too much. we're here for a good time
- keep writing wonderful, messy, ridiculous things with the homies bc it sparks joy and that is actually Enough™ believe it or not
- just vibe. whatever will be, will be :)

and i think i achieved that for the most part.
would definitely like to work more on the slow burn goodness, but outside of that, i think i'd like to work toward:

- get situated in a chill community where i can just write, no drama or mess (that doesn't have to do with our characters)

- keep improving on myself, writing-wise. there's always a lot to learn from other people (but at the same time understand that my own stuff isn't wrong or bad. just different)

- keep being open + honest about my wants and needs. we're here to work together in this hobby, not just give one-sidedly to satisfy anyone else

- once again: just vibe. there's nothing wrong with that, is there?

y'all ever think about the one point out of 25 that changed tsukishima's life?

'cos i do

my cat is so stingy. she won't even let me hold paws with her for thanksgiving :/

it is really nice to not feel like you're gonna get your hands bitten off for poking around in skin coding to test things/gain knowledge regarding features.

i know and understand that coding is sacred to people, but at the same time... co-admining is a joint effort, and i'd also like to be able to handle basic things/be able to help update so its not just one big burden on one person's shoulders.

anyway. it is very nice. getting it right feels good, too.

among us with feet , your newest name is making me think about the gorgeous gorgeous girls greater rheas and their eyes.
i love them sm

thinkin bout chuckie finster mom scenes in rugrats in paris and crying