SUMMER BREAK BITCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM F R E E

this newish art gallery site is so nice. it's nice being on an art gallery site that's more like the days of old but also with a really good responsive layout and accessibility features <3 it's been so long since I've had a semi-public art gallery since I just mostly took the "draw for myself and maybe make fan art for friends" road but I have to admit this actually motivates me to finish more pieces since it feels nice having a busy gallery. not to mention it's like a soft backup of my art in case all of my other backups fail forever somehow

the haikyuu movie was so good. i am still tearing up. that's all

All these migraines need to go away and stay away.

I took care of my dog constantly thinking, “do this so you won’t have any regrets” up until the very end when i decided to put him down. Yet it’s all i still find that’s left in me. I don’t know how long this period will go. I can’t seem to feel or remember the good times. Only guilt

Edit: attaching a doggo pic in the interwebs for dopamine

At the end of the day, the grief is a sign you truly loved your dog, and if you feel such grief and guilt, then you've probably drawn out your very best to give your furry family all the love you have.

Find solace with your loved ones. Let yourself grieve.

Can we please for the love of fuck, act like normal people and not overcomplicate yes or no answers? Please? No? Whatever then.

one of my dear friends is going through the same thing as you. her cat was given to her when she started chemo as a child, and she lived to be quite old. in her last few years of life and my friend was newly an adult, she was struggling a lot with her cat's health, as her parents had never even taken her cat to the vet outside of getting her fixed. she went through a very long, arduous and expensive trauma trying to do the best she could for her cat, and eventually, it became apparent that no matter what she did, it would never be enough. her cat's health just wasn't getting better, and in the end, she was able to have a vet come to her home and put her to sleep. it was sad, but ultimately she knew that it was the right thing to do for her beloved pet. she said she didn't feel better, and for many days after her cat's passing, she was understandably, an emotional wreck. not because her cat was gone, but because she felt guilt for feeling relieved that it was finally all over.

i don't know you like that, obviously, ditto become human, but be kind to yourself. you did what was best for your dog, and while you might not feel like it, know that choosing to euthanize our pets when it's their time is the kindest thing we can do for them. i've had pets come and go, and it never gets easy. there's something about the childhood family pet dying that just destroys you, and i think it's important to let yourself feel those feelings. it's understandable, and natural to have complex feelings about the person or creature you're caring for when you're their primary caretaker. it's fucking exhausting and often a thankless job. you care about your dog, but the financial and emotional stress that comes with caring for an aging pet is just a lot.

that's all to say, it's okay to not just feel sad. it's okay to feel guilt (though you have nothing to feel guilty for, obviously). the good times, and the love will come back, i promise.

characters who believe in something immoral or incorrect are just way more interesting to me than characters who are either totally nihilistic or solely concerned about survival. anyway that’s why i’ll probably continue to write bleeding hearts, religious zealots, and prejudiced ocs who are on the “good and necessary” faction

edit: oh my god this is why i like sunday honkai star rail

He had me at

(spoilertagged for those playing HSR but who haven’t completed MSQ yet, read at own risk. )

spaghetti and meatballs

Most stories I've written over the past two decades have protagonists that are women dressed as men, women mistaken for men, women who wish to be men...

I probably shouldn't think too hard about it, there's nothing there.

Last day grooming a dog before I graduate on Wednesday. Please let it be a well behaved dog.