aliasmaestro, mae
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because even my darkness will shine brightly.
okay cue long post as i describe all my past aliases that i can remember.
i started out on wcrpg as blackriver, then became a weeb and went as kyoko for a while, then i got into paramore and went by looking up which was shortened to lookie, which was my first actual rp site alias. after a while as lookie, i ended up having a really bad breakdown, in which i was hospitalized for "possibly being a danger to myself and others" and then continued to be hospitalized for longer than expected after an attempt while there.
when i got out, i was happier, but also... not. so i rejoined the site as facade because i wasn't sure if i was still myself or... not. it was also because i was literally pretending i'd never been there before because i was embarrassed as fuck that i'd essentially disappeared because of my breakdown
anyways, after that, some other stuff happened, once again dealing with mental health, and i joined a pokemon site under the name of glass. my reasoning for this name was because i felt really fragile all the time, honestly, and i was always terrified that at any moment i could just. shatter. went by glass for about two years, while also being on two other sites as fate; chose that because i'd been starting to feel better about myself but things were still not that good at home. around the time i first went as fate on a site, i'd started asking myself philosophical questions about my place in life. i was 16.
when ccr was announced to be moving from proboards to jcink, i decided that i could use a change. i was feeling good. i was happy. it was a strange feeling. i remember wanting to take control of my life. i also really wanted a music related name. and so maestro was born, because conductor sounded boring. from there, my nickname was mae until i decided to officially change it to just mae because maestro didn't sound right anymore and mae did.
i think mae will stick.
i still sort of go by maestro in other spheres, but people still call me mae anyways. it's nice.
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last edit on Sept 12, 2018 17:37:04 GMT by M A E !
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