i love my not dead wife (clefairy 🌙), even when she’s sending me down merch hell for topaz hsr

was called "feminism's willy wonka" and that's quite possibly the greatest and worst thing i've ever been called yet, god bless

exactly what the tin says, folks.


custom font ($100): Henny Penny please im begging
custom name color ($70): #8a091b
total: -$170 from this account

me and my rl friends have conceptualized a lot of projects over the years but goddamn the plausibility of making a full vn is still so exciting, we already have the layout, outline, and research prepped babyyyyyy

so far the closest ive gotten is finding indie artists in redbubble when you put "himmel frieren" in the search bar BUT ITS STILL SMTH

hes such a wife i love him,,,

i havent watched anime in so long and now im in ep 10 of frieren and actively looking for keychains of himmel while struck with the longing of wanting a dead anime (male)wife. how am i here.

five things that went well, ez.

1. started this year a broke uni student consistently stressed off her ass with a rlly rough irl situation spanning months while being therapist to a lot of shit i shouldn't have been a therapist to; ended this year with a degree, a thesis, honors, a well-paying job, and a reminder of the absolutely incredible people in my social circles and healthy relationships ive already got

2. bought a new snazzy gaming laptop with my own money after yearning to get a new laptop since 2020 and toughing it out with my old on life-support laptop for 3 years

3. got into a rlly competitive well-paying traineeship program for a big international media conglomerate that had over 100+ applicants all around the country and only accepted 30 after a rigorous vetting process including interviews, focus groups, assessments, and webinars. they only got who they deemed "the absolute Best the country has to offer" which i'll take as a major w

4. got back into reading despite a massive multi-year reading slump i'd been on, and finished a book i rlly enjoyed within 3 days!

5. in relation to the above, just got overwhelmed with absolute love, support, and care from a lot of people within my community, and my social circles irl and online, as well as people beyond those spheres after a rough stint a few months back. genuinely cannot be any happier with where i'm at.

jokingly called this year to my friends and my therapist (so another w: finally got the financial stability & motivation to get therapy after wanting to do so for so many years), this was rlly the year of character development for me and as much of a hot mess it was, i'm p satisfied with how it turned out for me and my choices. which, if you told me i'd be in this mindset and position last january, i would NOT believe you and still be crying over thesis.

all in all - for all its highs and lows, merry christmas and happy holidays everyone! here's to the new year, baby.

started frieren and they rlly got me down bad for a dead old man, hate it here fr

- baldur's gate 3 finally. reached act 3 last night. please don't look at my steam hours on it please.
- god of war: ragnarök's valhalla dlc. gowr is easily my all time favorite game for a number of reasons, and the fact they dropped the valhalla dlc for free on my birthday is just, like, some kinda sign ill be real.

prior to both of those, resident evil 4 remake. bought separate ways last week so i'm planning on picking that up after my first run of bg3, then replaying either tyranny, pillars of eternity, or divinity: original sin 2.

finally playing baldurs gate 3, its been less than a week, and my dm backlogs in all social media and chat apps has never been longer o h n o

currently reading Before We Disappear by Shaun David Hutchinson and man, it makes me want to write mlm or wlw assistants to rival magicians in the early 1910s energy.

also currently reading Black Punk Now, edited by James Spooner and Chris L. Terry & Defeating Dictators: Fighting Tyranny in Africa and Around the World by George B. N. Ayittey, albeit less regularly than the above since they're primarily non-fiction deepdives into major topics. enjoying both of them a lot!

lowkey tempted to finally reread the Strange the Dreamer duology by Laini Taylor after BWD since i unironically consider the seond book in that series an actual masterpiece and its been so long since i've read it, but we'll see

next time we're on a site together hmu lets go, for however shortlived their thread was isobel and sirin were fun

bc a couple ppl posted old lines they wrote, im joining the bandwagon bc these two passages are stuff im hella proud of and hate a lot for the sheer reason that i cant write these bangers again bc i already did



this other one is rlly long so ill spoiler text it but i swear, allow me to write introspection and i absolutely will write introspection



edit: actually, rereading the thread the above passage is from, i also remembered this bit and how much i love the trope of "non-theatric/talkative/eloquent character abruptly rambles into a soliloquy about existentialism and what it means to be a person". bonus is that i was tipsy while writing this. spoilered due to the sheer LENGTH my god.