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i don't get angry when i'm pissed; i'm the eternal optimist.
rlly surreal and freeing feeling to realize that the time and energy ive spent on some things no longer in my life, now that its gone, im able to spend on old passions and hobbies i havent been able to get into for years and its just Nice(TM)

im almost halfway through this dense book i started last night and its been,,,, so long since ive been this engrossed and into a book. goodness.



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i don't get angry when i'm pissed; i'm the eternal optimist.
started Babel: Or the Necessity of Violence: An Arcane History of the Oxford Translators' Revolution by R.F. Kuang. i saw one reviewer mention that you could just Tell the author is an academic because the title sounds like it's straight out of JSTOR and i felt that in my soul.

that said, one chapter in and this book hits So Hard, goodness. this specific passage gutted me:

He buried his past life, not because it was so terrible but because abandoning it was the only way to survive. He pulled on his English accent like a new coat, adjusted everything he could about himself to make it fit, and, within weeks, wore it with comfort.


update: almost halfway through and its kinda insane how invested i am. this passage got me

‘You’re lost, brother. You’re a ship adrift, searching for familiar shores. I understand what it is you want. I sought it too. But there is no homeland. It’s gone.’ He paused beside Robin on his way to the door. His fingers landed on Robin’s shoulder, squeezed so hard they hurt. ‘But realize this, brother. You fly no one’s flag. You’re free to seek your own harbour. And you can do so much more than tread water.’


this one was so funny but such a mood

During the fourth-year exams last year, one examinee was rumoured to have become so paranoid that he declared not only that he could not finish the exam but that he was lying about being fluent in French at all. (He was in fact a native speaker.) They all thought they were immune to this particular folly until one day, a week before exams, Letty suddenly broke down crying and declared she knew not a word of German, not a single word, that she was a fraud and her entire career at Babel had been based on pretence. None of them understood this rant until much later, for she had indeed delivered it in German.

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it’s been so long since ive gotten legitimately hungover a good book. its taking all my willpower to not just jump straight into the spinoff series now that ive finished our violent ends



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dependent on the people. my straightforward yet vague "don't ask further questions" description of rp to strangers, or people i'm not close to, or who i know don't share the same quirky hobbies (i.e. if i know you play dnd or have ocs, i'm more likely to mention rp to you) just tends to be "online writing group". if i'm probed about it further (i.e. like when my therapist asked me to elaborate since i did opt to get therapy after one bout of a rough rp stint), i'll just say the whole deal. i think internet and nerd culture these days makes it a lot more, like, accessible and less prone to weird stares tbh.

funnily enough, said stint did lead to me exposing myself as an rp-er to my rl circles (family, close friends, a work friend who eventually became a close friend) for, let's chalk it up to Reasons(TM) — and honestly? worth it. granted, a lot of it was due to the fact i treated rp/my narratives in rp as a labor of love, so it was rlly just,,,, Nice(TM) to show that, hear the opinion, and the response of people i know in my rl. everyone i knew were invested at best (one of my friends straight up asked me if i could link them my home site so they could read ALL the threads i did for several narratives + gave a rlly indepth analysis of the ideas and plots i wrote that i didn't even think of myself but it was super cool to hear the outsider perspective), and at worst, all i got was "damn i can see how much this rlly shows what ur good at and how you incorporated the shit you did for rp into rl and flourished, get that bread".

ofc my experience definitely, like, doesn't feel like it would be the Standard response. but hey, it was good for me. i think a lot of ppl—writers, especially—deal with the whole "fear of being known" and, like, same. but honestly? sometimes it's just nice to take that leap and ppl can be way cooler than you expect them to be



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straight up, i love events. i love making events with weird prompts and mechanics, and seeing how people take those and run. it's hella satisfying to watch, and i adore reading every single event thread community members make because of that. the threads i've read and written in the past few weeks have been absolute gems, man



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Anyone else doing NaNoWriMo this year that might want to buddy up? ;u;
i'm not doing nanowrimo this year unfortunately (work is too hectic for it orz) but as someone who did it religiously way back when, i wish you luck! get that 50k word bread



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technically wanted to save this for the eventual 2024 NY resolutions thread, but i rlly do want to do more ships with more people. the feeling just rlly compounded today and i half-blame our violent ends by chloe gong



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1. fma brotherhood — i have too many feelings about this one, it's almost funny. wrote an entire 14-page paper about edward elric and atheism for my theology class in uni and got an A for it. genuinely one of those "if there's any show you have to see at least once, it's this" kind of recommendations i'd give

2. mob psycho 100 — still need to finish s3 but i got into this one years after i left the anime sphere. just incredible. i adore it sm.

3. fate/zero — of all the fate/ material out there, this one was on another level, hot take. even if i do have issue with how it treats female characters but that's for another day

4. soul eater — it definitely didn't age well imo, but i still love this one to death. it's aesthetics, style, plot, characters (disregarding how it treats female characters too that's,,,, a long rabbithole), and music are easily some of the closest to my heart.

5. angel beats — looking back, i wouldn't be surprised if it's mid tbh but when i was into it, i was Very into it. the premise and characters were rlly close to my heart, same with the music. it was my comfort show for the longest time i rewatched it like, almost concerningly often way back then.



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got my hair cut and dyed in the salon and goodness, its wild having a stable income. uni student me could NEVER imagine being able to purchase half of the stuff ive gotten in the past few months



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do "smooth sailing narratives" count? LOL

i guess another way to refer to it is "easy Ws" but that doesn't sound 100% correct to me. idk, ask anyone who's plotted with me and you'll likely be told i like conflict a lot. far too much, even. it's definitely personal taste, but i vastly enjoy writing and doing plots that demand characters (especially, and more accurately, my own) lose, fail, screw up, get hurt, hurt someone else, suffer a major loss, and have to demand their way into better shores. i'm a sucker for a good payoff, and i'm way too in love with writing and deconstructing tragedies.

also +'ing "threads with no specific direction" / "aren't About anything". its for that reason that i struggle a lot with SoL or chill threads in general tbh.
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