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i don't get angry when i'm pissed; i'm the eternal optimist.
1700-1800s supernatural europe with monsters and monster hunting secret societies. infernal devices, vanitas no carte, fontaine, and castlevania: nocturne energy please please please



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aliasCel, Nightlock
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i don't get angry when i'm pissed; i'm the eternal optimist.
echoing a lot of ppl here wrt "enthusiasm and energy" — it's a lot easier for me to be enthusiastic and confident about a thread, where it's going, and where it'll go in the bigger picture, making it easy to reply back if the other person shows a similar amount of effort, enthusiasm, energy, and investment. also genuinely SUCH a thing i appreciate. if you talk to me in dms and openly engage, talk about our shit, etc. (esp despite my general npc energy) with me? my dude, i'll love you and be so down to do anything with you quickly. it helps so much. 

i think stallas hit the mark in saying "if you post regularly and reliably". idk, if i see threads left incomplete (esp when its threads w other ppl and not me) it tends to make me feel uncertain just as well, esp on reply speed. it enables taking your sweet time, which is chill, but also tends to lend to a lot of stuff being either slow moving or never going to fruition. (on that, i have SO much respect for people who are willing to take accountability and be communicative/transparent if they can't finish threads, commit to plots, etc. i think its a major plus in rp-ing if you do. pls just talk to me, let me know whats going on, i'll respect it so much and work with that)

i also rlly like introspective threads, philosophical ones, those that are dev'ing characters and their feelings and personalities. so i love more character / personal-focused replies; it lets me do the same, and its just rlly fun to see similar or different opinions between characters. give me that contemplation to read and i'll feel so much compelled to return the favor.


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i don't get angry when i'm pissed; i'm the eternal optimist.
i've been writing this character for almost 3 years (more than, bordering 5 if you count his old incarnation from a private rp that didn't get completed) and im genuinely so emo that his arc is closing out now. this passage from one of his last few posts rlly makes me feel a certain way:


All of it—possibility, opportunity, what might be—slipped away at an ether; gone while barely even having the chance to bloom. All for a cause he'd still, foolishly, unequivocally, know he'd still give everything for if it meant the world was all the better for it.

And still, at the heart of everything, Lucas does realize one truth that hasn't changed, in all those potential lifetimes and where he's standing now:

He wants to live.

Looking forward, ahead, in the space between the here and now and what could be. Past the monsters, past Lucas Gabriel Hathorne, past the tragedies, past the funerals, and past the sacrifices. Maybe even past—

"How do you know that'll work out for me?" Lucas can't help but ask.

Marguerite chuckles, and a warmth fills in his chest that's almost akin to hope.

"I can recommend some excellent prosthetists."


"So now, Mr. Hathorne, humor me: What do you intend to do with the time you have?"

There is still so much work to do, but this time, Lucas thinks it's no longer for his repentance. That there will always be some part of him crying out of some desperate need to do and be good, but in pondering what matters and what Lucas wants to do with the life he has—

Lucas Gabriel Hathorne(?) makes a decision.

"...Are you still open to long-term bargains?"



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a setting with similar vibes to masquerada: songs and shadows, dandy ace, the sexy brutale, or even just lyney & lynette's theming from fontaine. magic-fueled renaissance with glitz and glamor, circus carnival and venetian aesthetics. all that kinda stuff.



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not my last post, but a few snippets from some of my recent ones since i liked these a lot despite feeling a certain way re: my writing rn esp since i havent posted here in a fair while

Emerys Malahki is a phantom in a dead man's skin, coated in nothing more than the last words of the dearly departed through brushstrokes and oil palettes. That's all he is; seventy years cannot take more from him. Instead, they simply familiarize him to the galaxy he should not exist in, and the role he's meant to play in it.

...Or that's what he wants to believe in, anyway. As much as he wants to believe that Ygrasil gave their life to bring forth the dawn of a new world, or that Eas promises existence without demand—to be and to live as if that's the greatest thing one can do. As much as he wants to believe that come the day they burn his body and realize it's built in parchment and canvas, Qituna's frost will give him his proper due, in the same way he wants to believe she did of his predecessor.

What he does not believe in is that this—what a diplomat decides is his purpose in her great design—is a part he needs to play further than the dotted line.


"Darling, as much as I appreciate the sight of men on their knees before me," Nadira lowers herself down to examine him further, the mumbles from earlier proving to be some sort of sign of life, "you can't keep spoiling me each time I visit you."


Nadira is a soldier herself, different battlefield. Her role in the war is never over, and as long as Sithea breathes—it never will. So it’s easy to slip into past habits and tendencies, insist on information no matter how buried. Or maybe that’s just what people call care these days, no?


and this next one is RLLY long so im spoilering it but its probably the passage im most proud of in my recent writing to date —

Back in university, Lucas remembers taking an elective on mythology and tragedy.

It wasn’t his first choice—that had been some science course on the biology of sci-fi in media, run by a professor he’d been on the good side of earlier in the year. But it ran out of slots, and even if he could have paid his way into the class list, it didn’t feel right. So he saw another elective, heard it was a walk in the park, and took the shot.

In it, he found that there was a certain, near-masochistic, obsession with the tragic hero. The presentation of a man and his folly, his most defining attribute proven to be hamartia as he leads himself to his own fall, dragging countless others down with him. Orpheus looks back, Achilles’s pride damns the Greek side of the war until it costs him his love and his life, Creon refuses sympathy for the dead, Oedipus attempts to decry his own fate only to meet it on the way. It paints a picture, settles the foundation for the future, and he remembers being unable to think of anything else then but how no writer gets away with letting Spider-Man have his happy ending ( One More Day erases Mary Jane and their children; Gwen Stacy always has to fall off the building; Harry Osborn always becomes the Green Goblin; someone always has to die when he saves the world, he can never have it both ways, with great power comes great responsibility, and the only way to show love is to jump off the tallest roof ). Luke Skywalker saves the galaxy but ends up alone.



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ayyyyy lets gooooo

-How familiar are you with Cyberpunk?
Played both major tabletop games (Cyberpunk RED and Cyberpunk 2020), the former as both a player character of multiple campaigns and a DM, the latter as a player character. Read RED’s handbook and familiarized myself with its lore. Played a bit of 2077, watched the first half of Edgerunners. So a fair bit?

-What do you think of when you hear “Cyberpunk”?
The genre. Gimme Blade Runner, Shadowrun, Cyberpunk, VA-11 Hall-A, heck even Orwell. I love the genre.

-Going with your first impulse, your gut feeling, what would your first character be like?
No lie would remake my favorite RED pc — a corpo nepotism exec baby who’s secretly moonlighting as a Banksy-type media exposing corpo practices in vidfeeds. Bruce Wayne/Batman but for the corporate takedown journalism community.



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a couple of ppl who know me rl: you should apply to (big design company) ! they have a couple entry jobs, good pay, and good benefits + it's up your alley
me, looking at the joblisting: ok actually i can probably do that
me, beginning the application process: ...wait i don't have a portfolio nvm
me, an hour later, after getting bored and sifting through a bunch of folders in my laptop: what do you mean i have a lot of design templates, layouts, mockups, logos, and graphics that i've done when i was bored all because i hyperfixated on my ocs? what do you mean i have what might be enough to constitute a proper portfolio--
i don't want to discourage you, but i want to save you some heartache down the road. as someone who works in the design industry, i would not recommend putting rp stuff in your professional portfolio.

they will ask you if you have rights over any art you post in your portfolio. but honestly, you should be showing mostly original work in your portfolio, because it is a showcase of your skills, not someone else's. your interviewers will always ask how much of the work you did and what was your role. if you can't answer that, then you will be straight up rejected.

there's plenty of things you can do on your own that you can put in your portfolio, like redesigns or case studies. if you put rp/oc things into your portfolio, just prepare to explain what it is and your design decisions.

honestly though i would love to see more people in the rpc become designers. happy to provide resources if people would like them!


oh no i appreciate the input fully ! i wasnt planning on involving art that wasnt made by me in the slightest; a lot of the stuff im eyeing submitting have been redesigns, custom art, vectors, templates and mockups that were made from scratch. a lot of them were just inspired / based off old characters, their storylines, and aesthetics that ive gotten the design inspiration for.

thank you so much for the heads up and input ! ill be sure to keep it all in mind should i pursue <3



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i don't get angry when i'm pissed; i'm the eternal optimist.
a couple of ppl who know me rl: you should apply to (big design company) ! they have a couple entry jobs, good pay, and good benefits + it's up your alley
me, looking at the joblisting: ok actually i can probably do that
me, beginning the application process: ...wait i don't have a portfolio nvm
me, an hour later, after getting bored and sifting through a bunch of folders in my laptop: what do you mean i have a lot of design templates, layouts, mockups, logos, and graphics that i've done when i was bored all because i hyperfixated on my ocs? what do you mean i have what might be enough to constitute a proper portfolio--
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