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tempted to apply for a directorial position in my theatre group's new production,,,,, but im 1) behind on classes, 2) busy af, 3) have bursts of low energy moments that leave me unmotivated and incapable of doing anything 🙃

oh, the cons of being both stupid ambitious and stupidly low energy all at once

oh this sounds INCREDIBLE. i was originally going to do a steampunk dystopian site of my own a year or so ago but never did so, so this scratches my muse for that vibe.

consider me a very potential member! and if you'f like to give out a link, my dms are oooopen

im so behind on my classes and its just the start of second quarter

but hey, the queen's gambit is good binge material

The Age of Rust, which was supposed to be an animanga gaslamp/steampunk fantasy site with a huge overarching plot about a conflict between two warring factions—loyalists to an immortal king hellbent on restricting magic users, and underground revolutionaries determined to make the world better for mages, no matter the cost. My personal favorite thing about it was that the magic system felt like something that could cause a LOT of conflict, in that it followed FMA's "equivalent exchange" rule where something must be sacrificed to cast something else. Consequences would be a big deal overall, both with characters, the plot, the setting, etc.

The setting I had in mind was also going to be really bizarre and different, imo, in that it mostly took place in a Sky City. The lore and core religion of the setting also took nods from Arthurian legends. So much so that one of the canons in the site, the leader of the revolutionary group, was considered "blessed" by the Lady of the Lake. There's a library that's rumored to be Merlin's, etc. etc. Lots of fun stuff there.

But I never pushed through with it because 1) it would likely require Jcink Premium, and I know I can't swing that since the panel is super intimidating and I'm also a broke university student lol. 2) I could never find a co-admin to help me run it or keep the whole thing afloat. 3) I am ambitious af and would have wanted it to use its own codes and such, have a pretty skin, etc. But, once more, points to #1. And finally 4) it feels like a daunting task and I just have too much on my plate atm to even think about considering it.

Might revitalize the idea in the far future since I still like it and consider it promising. But ha. Maybe not for meanwhile.

i have discussion posts to make for several of my classes since like two days ago, but have i done them??? no.

first husbando: god i barely remember but, i think, it was nagihiko fujisaki from shugo chara. especially when he does a chara change??? so much fun. loved that.
first waifu: utau hoshina from shugo chara or sango from inuyasha. i love a woman who can kick my ass.

latest husbando: reigen arataka, mob psycho 100. rat man. i love him.
latest waifu: bishamonten from noragami, riza hawkeye from fma:b, or winter schnee from rwby. once more, i love a woman who can kick my ass.

the muffin man???

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i am NOWHERE near emotionally or motivationally ready enough to start the second half of the semester tomorrow. how about a no.

i'm probably just channeling my love of both disco elysium and the amberlough dossier when i say this but - underground political revolutions in the aesthetics of the roaring twenties and art deco. i mean, c'mon, spy plots, hidden alliances, statecraft, a huge "trust no one" kind of vibe in a glamorous background of cabaret, film, and burlesque?

i'm not your therapist. i'm your friend, and i listen because i care about you and your wellbeing. but i am not obligated to always be your sense of reason.