Was trying to get to pixel when i type “p” but i got taken to pokerogue instead….

i've always thought i struggle with outlining and then i accidentally opened the echoes of mana guide i made that was largely used back in those days and im like i want what my brain did the guide was actually clean and good 

all i remember was i triggered my prediabetes due to drowning in takeaway coffee.............. is that the secret

(this is rp edition bc the contex is me making the site info gdocs...)

til the move “dragon’s ascent” is flying type……

Babe:🤮
Bebe: 🥰

overrated, cheesy advice that should be said more often: love yourself, and take not being lacking, either by skill, misfortune, or circumstances, to be a shame you have to be embarrassed about. everyone has to take care of themselves and until one can provide a healthy support for themselves to be confident enough, don't be too hard on yourself if you're unable to serve others as much as you'd like. some would call it selfishness, but i view an individual as two person. one who is you, and another who is your friend. so don't forget to look at your thoughts as how you would with a friend! you know better this friend of yours better than anyone else. they want to write and see others enjoy their company, but life can be a big bad btch to them at times.

and think of the good things too! yeah, it really sucks when things don't go well and you feel like people are just putting up with you. but for sure, being with you also involves many plenty of positive things! don't let the bad part overshadow the good parts too. 

of course, i won't say i understand what it's like to live with such a debilitating sickness. i am sure it is difficult, but i think you are being too hard on yourself when you have that on top of all these introspective judgments. 

there's also a common saying in our language: be makapal na mukha. it means "shameless" or "having the audacity of" and by definition, it is a negative saying. but it's also common to say it to ourselves in a joking/cheerful manner as a way to make ourselves braver. we understand it's a bit too much, but we also desire the opportunity to be happy regardless of how we deem ourselves (or by others) to be "unworthy." It's saying, "yeah i know it's shameless BUT i'm just going to do it okay? plsss lmao". it's not just in that saying too. another common filipino phrase, bahala na (tl que sera sera) has a negative connotation of fatalism but from the filipino perspective, it's also a traditional value. not even bsing at this point since this was a paper i did in college. these sayings were born forth in attempt to brace ourselves from circumstances outside of control, stemming from erratic weathers in a tropical country relying on argiculture. we say bahala na to be brave enough to step forward despite how uneasy we feel.

so, just imparting some filo reckless optimism. ganun talaga is what we say. "it be like that!" in a comforting manner

Was bring my shiny mespirit to farm candids to further reduce its cost but due to my shiny / gamba addiction, decided to leave jt behind in my classic run for a team of four shiny. I was expecting the shiny charcadet to do the early carrying but instead, my shiny giant nose with an unimplemented ability is soloing cause i stumbled in a thunder stone early on to evolve it.

But now everyone else is underlevelled saved for my s ariados (who have been brought three times already) who had unexpectedly been caryinf with that bug protect move + priority move combo. Trying to scum save my way through the third rival fight cause rival’a infernape decided it would have a a coverage as big as god and cheating moves like fire pledge and thunderous kick.

I dont want to restart it bc of the early thunderstone and amulet coin i got… though tbh i am losing my current run cause i still havwnt learned when the rival fight is and i have a dead linoone (pickup slave) and 2 yellow health mon…

I also picked up a cute trubbish with toxic spikes

How’s everyone’s gamba (gambling) going

Edit: also i had this toucannon destroyer (part 2 pending)
youtu.be/zxD5PoIrQ-0?feature=shared

Got into it cause of ray narvaez and that’s his fav mon (it’s a useless mon)

edit 2: i've escaped the rival hell it only took 4 hours and a notepad note-taking that was completely useless

Best thing abt being in charge of the kitchen is i can make myself cheesy potatoes at 130 am bc im craving

A quick, mobile unformatted post after 3 months!! And this is awkwardly an update explaining _two_ delays

First cause of delay and lack of monthly update: recently moved back in february, my senior dog’s health deteriorated to full immobility and he later passed away. Had to process this stuff too for a whole month.

And now as i was finally working on an update, i got sick and it came back worse lmao. I’m still slowly chipping stuff in but i cant even make it to finish a development letter

Still definitely working on this! Just having a lot of hang ups outsids of my control. I have pokerogue keeping me conpany in the meantime and games to keep giving me some inspo

Turbs put i wasnt being unlroducfivd but sick

“I’m gonna lie down and take a break from thinking [about site stuff]”

*falls asleep*

CHOO CHOO

🌛

Part of the reason why i’ve been i to bl series ks bc i just cant trust writers writing women anymore lol sick of stories just being slapped in by a non developing forced relationship to fill the woman quota