Lowkey mg most unreallistic wish is to become an actor. Nothing avt fame or recognition. I just want to rp irl too and i think if’s fun…

i read for the gay but then they become parents and suddenly i'm reading for the child care

"Why can't I sleep?" wonders Tanz, having drank coffee that night.

i havent had appetite at all since my dog passed that im forcing myself to eat. Am i depressed and the anti anxiety meds im on happen to ge an antidepressant muting it…

Should i make an appointment…. I dont feel like it though .. but i really am hungry but i dont want to eat…

I keep thinking about that time i posted in gs’s random thought thread that “just had my first ic kiss” and a friend quoted “just had my first irl kiss” i was the recipient of the joke but it was still funny af and i laugh at the memory to this day

my quest to get back in the swing of things is slow but it exists (pc post)

we could be six posts in and i’ll throw a dimensional gateway cracking letting unloose beast themed aliens bc why aren’t we doing that more? Why settle for infinite spawn bandits when we could have more!!

WHY DO I KEEP HAVING ZOMBIE DREAMS

YOOO TRACES OF THE SUN

I HATE IT

THE STORY IS SO COMPLETE AND GOES FULL CIRCLE

AND THERE’S NO SEQUEL AHHH

(I love it easily one of my favs)

it was in group chat and i dont think they literally meant it triggered them, but probably upsetting and enough to ruin your mood in the enzt 10 mins bc you didnt expect to get so pissed over a fictional character haha. We were a chill community that i’d like to think knew each other decently enough since we were rping for 6+ months there. It is nice to be able to hear and talk about these stuffs without feeling like you’re threadinng on eggshells, for sure

But this does remind me of that one time - in the same site - where a newbie came over and pointed out (politely) about how i was using the fc of an actor who passed. It was my first time using irl faces and i ddint know that was ethically inappropriate. Tbh at that moment, i thought i was honoring him but i was leaning on heeding that person’s opinion more bc i know i dodnt know much. I was also a staff at that time and when i quickly admitted i didnt know it and went over to remove the fc asap until i can replace it, they were genuinely stumped for a good minite bx of how easy it was. I could tell they were very nervous and expecting a negative reaction, and they were happy to see i didnt react that way.

They had a lot of courage to do that but it’s really sad people have to be this way when they’re doing the right thing. Because i get it. Especially when you’re pointing out to something to the staff.

Even with the ppl who i mentioned we were comfortable with each other, they were hesitant about criticizing the site system that was put in place for the premise’s main mechanic. I had to reassure them repeatedly i dont care - the point of a system is for the benefit of the community, not for my ego. Maybe bc i have a computer programmer mindset, but there’s no point of me making a code that’s supposed to fix your problem if youre on the mindset i’ll get hurt for sayong it didnt help you

I talked a log about me xD sorry about that but yeah. It’s great when ppl come forward with issues! And it’s sad when the whole issue with that is bc ppl are afraid of a negative reaction. As i always like to say, you cant control how others react.

Which is actually what the therapist of an old friend i had told them and they told me about it and now i talk about kt a lot

i have this built in my skin as “character notes” like cw for interaction, which i think is more relevant than individual cw.

I played a manipulative, gaslighting, endeavor-coded guy and halfway through the thread being a narcissistic douche to his daughter, someone following the family drama storyline mentioned conversationally how trigger he was and me and my rp partner were like holy shit yeah this guy needs a trigger warning. It seemed obvious but ooc chat have been generally like, laughing at how shitty the whole thing is. But when you’re reading ir or maybe even interacting with it, it can get crawl up to you. Now im proud of that bc that means i really played a terrible character well but also did feel very guilty not realizing that sooner.

So yeha i do believe there should be like that stuff in tumblr abt must reads before interactinf w/tge character.

Jumpscared myself from the emojis of my name