ever since i lost a major presence in my life and abandoned by people who i thought knew me, i've never felt sad about losing friends anymore. there was that talk about rp friends and online friends used to be my social life. i always looked forward to talking to them, meeting wit them. i experienced all sorts of emotions bc of them. i made such great friends who were rp friends even after that but i've also decided to cut off from them. it wasn't anything explosive or hurtful anymore, though something did happen that made me decide it wasn't worth it.  i'm still very much grateful for them and i still like them as people. but i don't miss them. i'm just not sad. i am so indifferent. i do have suspicions that i acted as rational as i can bc of my long trauma of losing relationships when i get emotional. so i just left before it went there.

i'm not lonely. i really am so much happier about myself. i don't know exactly what it means yet. it can mean many things. is it good? bad? who knows

but i am thinking about it bc i feel bad for the person who i was. sometimes i cry not bc of what i am feeling abt those times, but bc i feel like that person really was abandoned and left behind. even me. i feel like she died bc no one could accept her, and i was the person who finally ended her. i had to be someone else that the world can accept

SO THAT'S MY NEW INSPIRATION ON THE NOVEL I WAS WORKING ON BEFORE MY OTHER DOG DIED DURING COVID!!! and also it's 530 am man i CAN EE THE SUNRISE YEEPEEE!!!

also, in one segment of my convoluted zombie dream (and for once i did, in fact, read a zombie story to warrant it), the pp staff asked me to change my toilet icon bc it apparently made ppl uncomfortable

i mean i get it. it probably doesmt have a bidet

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i've ironed out the pokemon location (its name still pending) in line with the keywords update, so there's a more cohesive lore behind the setting and how it came to be. i have some scraps of drafts all over the place but unfortunately nothing i can confidently share yet. here's one of em scraps though

[...] is one of the three major forum in-character locations in the Terrorsverse, representing the Pokemon world in the Roleplay. It is where the Legends of Youth – all native Pokemon in the living obscura – reside.

[...] comprises 1, 025 Starter Towns, which are individual worlds with limited means of accessing locations beyond the town. Prior to the Pokemon League’s formation [...]

In this location, certain keywords have different meanings, such as "death" not leading to actual death. This is homage to how Pokemon games typically work, and - as mentioned in the last update - how it's inspired by Pokemon Emerald Rougue.

- “Death” results in fainting instead.
- “Injuries”, “wounds”, “bruises”, “bleeding” and other bodily trauma are converted to “damage” that simulates equivalent pain onto the Pokemon. This prevents any loss of limbs, gore, blood loss, etc.
- “Recovery” cannot occur naturally. Items and skills must be used to undo damage.

This location is the oldest story in the setting, showcasing how a world with keywords developed in time. It can be a world from nothing, or a world exactly like another, such as Sootopolis City. Or a corrupted one like Paradox Paldea...

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I've decided to work on the guidebook For Real. It's a struggle organizing and putting the stuffs down in a way that's easy to understand (skill issue, i know) but I have a strict goal on finishing it this month. Because *looks at the calendar* I still would need to evaluate everything from its core again to refresh my memory

ia with you despite not remembering much of lunar story. i was too young when i played it but i remember very specific moments that stayed with me today. like the memories of my past life i can't make sense of, but feel very personal and important also i think it's what started (or revealed) my love for arrogant characters who eventually make amends, flipping their own trope to themselves.

also i was very much in love with the axe lady... now that i think about it, i think this is also what ignited my love for women that can choke me...

also my real name is tannabelle and ya all are invited to my house i’ll cook you my food show you to my dog altar and we’ll read manga and also i’ll ask your favorite colorr

i didnt read what ya all said but rp friend isn’t a bad word. We’re all rp friends. Rp buddies. Collaborators of the anguished literary underworld. It’s cool.

We’re not friendsfriends and that doesn’t mean we’re not anything less special with each other. All connections are beautiful and valid

Besides if you were my friendfriend i’d call you a stinky ass bi-

Not once did i think i want to be a beautiful or even good-looking woman. I always thought it would have been cool if i were a handsome man

🤡 #dumberonhindsight

i like having weird names bc it further entices me to like people’s posts and they just get a nice surprise in their alerts every few weeks

playing blacksmith of the sand kingdom. just a game i found that i felt like would jive, and it jived. rpg with class builds and MAKING MONEEEYYY

this is why you’ll never be the last poster to win…

The third point sounds more anecdotal. I’ve definitely been in a community with that but i have been communities with way more that don’t. Every group always has its own problem. I’ve seen more talk about face claims what with a lot of popular fc’s floating around but it really is more of a them problem. Like how every fandom always has the same annoying groups, but it shouldn’t really take away from your own experience with rping. Fc’s really shouldnt be that much of a big deal unless it is personally something that is for you.

IA about skins and i won’t repeat what has already been said. What i will say though is that the issue shouldn’t be on the burden on the rpc alone, because it’s largely a platform concern. Jcink and proboards have terrible customizations and accessibilities for those who are not familiar with coding. Providing free skins to these niche platforms is unrewarding compared to mainstream ones like tumblr, which has a far more diverse use from people of different interests and occupations.

But largely, the reason i personally do not find “rping is dying” is bc… the climate of the world is just so different already compared to 10 ans 15 years ago. RPC relies on an online community and the way social media, content creation and online and parasocial relationships have developed has transformed interactions vastly differently. And these issues are beyond the scope of what we’re responsible for. With times having greatly changed, it’s expected that module from before that worked, isn’t working as well anymore.

People are busier. People prefer to relax pn the short time they have playing games or accessing large content catered to them through algorithm or online collections and libraries. People always have phones with them now. People are always on social media. Times are just so different and a hobby that depends on pouring time with both people and personal effort is harder to even encourage due to technology

Edit: ftr i dont care whether you take it back or not lol. That’s your opinion and you’re free to hold it. I just wanted to point out that maybe saying that in a resource forum w/o context would naturally get aggressive responses since it sounded like you were picking a fight

i'm not rpign anywhere atm but i still feel this