Learned about fresh blood injuries. You know, for writing

Reddit is actually my fav place for my interests. Making friends with a older and younger bro tag lover asking for brother reccs and i came to their rescue a year later

Watashi was suyairymrks… *mumbles gibberish bc i dont remember the rest of mephisto by queen bee*

Me: another edgy regression manhwa with op mc you cant make me reas this
The regression manhwa: *has older and younger brother mc*
Me: woah woah hey im awake…

*deep breath*

BEBEE BOIIIIIIII

not me having a dream that there are, in fact, ao3 fics about underprin 😭 (i’ve decided already im gonna be writing thr only underprin fic to ever exist)

Wait so…. Now i can say… i am,,, tranz

i havent been on pixel on desktop for so long it logged me out

processing underprin. Literally no fandom around and i see more criticism than any love. Doesnt matter to me actuslly. I really felt itz i know how amazing it iss. It took me to such a personal journey i havent felt this emotional since wallace alt event… and ok pearl boy but this one is more complicated…. Peace tears happiness sadness it’s over the journey not seeing the chsracters again i am actually crying tears now like the 2nd stage of grief after a story that really took you is over… havent felt this way in a LONG TIME. Maybe back when i first experienced fmab…

Sdit: probs toward the terra too but i actively tried to forget that bc it really made me in despair lol

Edit2: ok literally cried and sobbed bc of everything but also bc i would never see the characters again. I can’t be with them in their journey anymore. It’s over and i am crying bc kf that. I’ve never cried this way over fictional works. This is so damn special to my heart and to myself as a writer too

just finished. I dont even want to talk about it. I want to savor it.

Actually my #1 fav of all time now lol

found a non bl non romance focused webtoon with dad and son story fochs and bonus it is a papa wolf incubus and so far it is LIVING to my dreams… so happy… to discover this (called underprin)

(I had to specify non bl in the context that most of the dad and son stories end up as incest 💀)

HIT ME ON THE GROUND HIT ME ON THE GROUND

Oh for sure. Can’t tell if it’s gender dysphoria or patriarchy.

I’ve been musing how it feels like a slider than went too far into female and i ended up as a woman with enough masc traits that don’t make me feminine, yet neither makes me masculine. I’ve always been mistaken as a boy when i was young, and my mom’s prior pregnancy before me was said to be a boy. but i am grateful it ended up this way bc if i were born a boy, i would’ve definitely put on skirts and dresses and probably be stabbed for it. i can dress however i want as a woman and just be passed off as being weird and quirky.

And thanks! I might have gone through this lifetime staying as a woman and be okay. Gender isn’t that big of a deal for me since i neither want to be strictly femine nor masculine. Yet i don’t exactly feel non-binary. But having realized i havw the choice to be a man and still be as feminine as i want, i def 100% want that. It just sounds more fun, and the fact that i so look forward to fully living that perspective as i transition socially fills me with excitement the more i process it 🙌🏼

Edit: also i probbaly should’ve never ignored the fact every time i was mistaken as a boy, i would actually be happy than offended lol (excet when i was like 5 years old when adults were saying it as a way to mock me 🤷🏻‍♀️) (also i just realized this too after typing this post) (my slow ass never comprehended that maybe thinking it was cool ppl thought i was a guy meant something… and how i just feel cooler overall…. And more confident…. When ppl thought i waz a dude… wtf how did i… not connect the dots) (as a ps i never tried to pass off a guy intentionally. i just… didnt want to be seen as a girl…..)