this is such a weird lovely song. i love that people see it so differently because of the shifting tone - is it happy? is it sad? bittersweet? does loving someone save you but also mean you lose yourself?

i love hopping around in Wiktionary for this! i pick a word i know and then hop through the etymology or synonym links until i get to a weirder word. like i typed in 'heretic' and just found withersake

i finally got a nintendo switch and i feel like a kid who just snuck into a big amusement park and all the rides are for me!! i have no idea what i should play first since i've been waiting so long. i'm really happy though c:

my code isn't living up to the graphics i'm using >.<

looking at my google calendar for tomorrow and seeing a big white blank makes me so happy omg. no meetings. no meetings!! maybe i'll finally get some work done :')

just saw ConcernedApe's teaser for Haunted Chocolatier!! looks cute, love the spooky willy wonka vibes and the more city-like setting. interesting choice to stick to the same art style (personally i've never been a huge fan of the sprites in Stardew Valley, their side-profiles look wayy too goofy when they turn left to right). 

in general i've been seeing a lot of cozy sim teasers lately that are on the spooky/witchy side. like this Witch in the Woods game. i think i've watched this trailer 3 or 4 times over the last year because it's so cute and the pixel art is so intricate. but how do you develop an entire game world with pixel art of such unique detail? how do people do it?? absolute wizardry.

it's finally raining. it hasn't rained in forever. october has been a hot month here for the last ten years it feels like, so it's nice to see it get cold and moody like it damn well should.

i started watching a lot of Critical Role on youtube. didn't know much about D&D before this other than a Freaks and Geeks episode i saw about it a long time ago (Carlos the Dwarf). but i'm really enjoying how the narrative can go from inane to hysterical to goofy at any moment.

some other things i've watched lately:

Corpse Bride. anyone else feel like this movie is awesome but like, you would've loved to have more plot? such an amazing dark victorian setting with dry, macabre humor and clay animation... i could watch a whole series like this. 

Les Diaboliques. interesting premise: a woman conspires with her husband's mistress to kill her husband, but then his body disappears... slow start, intriguing middle, very absorbing and suspenseful ending. worth watching for the last sequence alone. i just realized how easy it is to get spooked out by old movies... they don't move the camera much, it's hard to make things out in black & white, and the ambience is so hush-hush quiet that you feel like you're getting sucked into something and can't look away.

Spider-man 3. i think i erased this movie from my brain as a kid because it felt like a letdown after how awesome Spider-man 2 was, but i just watched it again and... wow it's so stupid still. but also insanely funny. i keep rewatching the dance sequences. somehow Raimi movies have that quality where it's like, i'm aware of how cheesy this is... but also not SO AWARE AND META that i'm being elitist and ruining all the fun.

that feeling when you've mentally prepared yourself for some huge herculean decision, stayed up nights and lost sleep over it, and then the whole thing falls through quicker than you can blink and say 'huh?'.

i mean what do you do with yourself after that?

omg i'm watching this too! high five. the show is kind of baffling but i was drawn in by how strange the premise is and how the show is so brazen about dropping you into the mess and not explaining itself at all.

another weird anime i'm half-watching while hate-working (yay remote jobs) is Burning Kabaddi. anyone else heard of this?! i was so amazed because i had no idea Japan does this type of wrestling game too. my parents used to watch kabaddi matches back home in Punjab and my siblings used to joke about muttering "kabaddi" while chasing each other as kids. it's very surreal to see an anime about what i assume is mostly an Indian sport. the animation is kinda bad though :S