finally feeling like an adult with a brand new desk, new chair, and a shiny monitor that i get to play w/ tomorrow when i get the fancy converter. we gonna get all the things done finally.

today started off good, but after being told i was "unimportant" and " bad at my job" to then someone asking me to stay an extra 20 mins bc they needed to get this one thing out like... y'all it turned into a bad day.

but i',m gonna go get my hair cut after almost 9 months, then go home and read over some threads that make my heart happy.

jcink like: u finally have muse huh? work's p slow for u, yeah? well, guess what's also gonna run slow???

scratchpad did us all dirty and really did that huh.
2020 really be like that

me @ the customer coming into the store saying i'm brave for not wearing a mask: ma'am i have anxiety that literally prevents me from wearing a mask.

me @ the customer coming in saying i'm a danger to everyone due to me not wearing a mask: if it's between getting sick and my sanity, i'd rather keep the sliver of sanity oi have left.

as may 1st continues to loom towards us, my brain is in a constant state of



in both excitement and panic

everything's rustlin the old jimmies today, apparently.
thank goodness it's friday or i might'e cut a binch

it gives me such a good feeling when you're on a level of friendship w/ people that you could.... pick out certain aspects of them.
the way a thread's going? same page feels good man.
listening to the same podcast and screaming about said things? gives me life.
watching friends play video games and being voice in the back that says the spooky sounds are just friends coming to visit. my sworn duty

havin one of those days where i know i'm worth it, deep in the recesses of my mind.
but the louder, more overpowering part of said mind has been shouting obscenities and nonsense my way, and makin me feel like the smallest ant in the world. the one that can't hold double it's weight and holds everyone back.

so i've been watchin some feel good youtube, listening to the magnus archives, and occasionally playing around in animal crossing to make myself feel better.

ravyn is actually my middle name, so i felt it safe to use while online! when i first waddled my way into the internet, it was during that time period where everything felt unsafe and names were sacred, so i went with something everyone in rl ever called me. i'm also really impartial to the fact that it's rather genderneutral since i tend to wane away from the normal spectrum. i relate v much to the black birds i'm named after, and will sometimes go by birb if i'm feeling adventurous on names, but i don't stray far from the winged friends.

i'm not actually sure when it happened, but without really noticing, people started calling me rav, which i adore honestly, and the way it's said varies, which makes me laugh bc i don't even know how to say my own nickname.

rewatching rwby while working on some graphics and i always forget how much i love volume 4's outfits...
like, idk man they fit the characters real well?

just spent the last 30 mins or so troubleshooting discord streaming.
four browsers and two laptops later, discovered that macs are not compatible with discord's screen share, but thankfully we got a backup laptop in the house.
also, chrome is great up till u need to screen share, and then it all falls apart.

Apr 6, 2020 15:41:43 GMT ravyn ⭑ said:

when i get sad, i either want to write a whole lot, or play video games. and today's gonna be one of those days.
so while i know it'll be hard, i'm gonna catch up on posts, and hopefully feel a little better by the end of it.

updating to this because i'm 16 posts deep and just passed the half way point, so it's been a good day so far.