graves sent you a pm (since i can't send a dm without having a discord handle l-lol)!



but also as a general disclaimer, when i say throw want ads at me, i genuinely mean it. throw the want ad at me. the more you got to give me, the better. i am not here to generally buy a site, i am here specifically for a want ad, and the more details and hype you have to give me, the better you are going to catch my attention and get me just as excited as you are for what you want to drag me off to do with you.

seriously. do it. kick down my door and word vomit about your most dearly desired want ad. i cannot stress enough that i want it. give it to me-

i just want to go home

today is just dragging :c

every time i get a crystal tower raid, i contemplate dcing, just cuz i'm so sick of seeing them

i. am going to keep this as short and sweet as i can. so i can't psyche myself out of it. or over-explain things into a nightmare.

basically, i've been out of non-1x1-private rp entirely for a few months, and i've been really missing writing, to the point that i'm practically vibrating myself into orbit (and depression) over it. but i'm also mega terrified by getting my heart broken by joining yet another site where i just end up as yet another number rather than a member that literally anyone is excited to see around + progress our plots together. so.

in short, i am looking to take the want ad. you know the one. the one that you would literally give your firstborn if it meant you could have it picked up. the one that you have kicked down random people's doors to yell about already and you'd do it again no questions asked if some rando showed up and said they wanted it. yeah. that want ad.

(this is why this is posted in the general search area, not the site search area. because sure, i am wanting to join a site, but far more than that, i am wanting to find a friend, and one who is going to be just as happy for finding me as i am for them.)

for compatibility purposes. i'm wanting to try to reply to things within a week or two, at most; i usually make gay male characters (usually either idiots with no impulse control, endearing sweethearts, overly-devoted self-sacrificing "knights", or gigantic pissbabies); i'd likely make multiple characters if it's feasible to do so + there's enough hype for it; i would die for a functional polyship of almost any kind; i like being able to rp/talk smut if i end up there (but it's not the focus or start of any relationship); and my favorite kind of plots tend to be the sort right out of a really dumb soap opera just because i like picking the funniest option possible + i love having a world where character interactions build on interactions with other characters (threaten me for sleeping with your best friend, i am on my knees).

my usual genres are pokemon, modern fantasy / supernatural, and animated panfandom (with a focus on genshin, arknights, twst, ffxiv, ffvii, and a bunch of older media say the words "vampire knight" enough times and i'll appear out of thin air to tell you how this series was a great premise with a horrible execution), but i'm open to almost anything other than animal sites, post-apocalyptic settings, political intrigue and/or site-plot-driven sites, and sites with large settings (i just don't like travel being a factor for whether two characters can feasibly meet, l-lol).

as a warning, i probably won't go for any proboards sites or noncanon sites of my panfan fandoms, but i'm still open to hearing them since in all honesty, the want ad is gonna be the major deciding factor for me being interested or not (so with that in mind, word vomit, because the more interesting + hyped the ad is, the more interested i'm going to be in turn).

yeah, i still want to throw myself into the sun over the sheer awkwardness of this, i am just so over being upset over not being able to write that i'm willing to just post it anyway and deal with the self-consciousness-

i really wish i could think of a way to write up something for "please show me all of the want ads you have - y'know, the ones you'd give your firstborn to get filled - because i'm not just looking for a site, i'm looking for a friend" without feeling like i'm either gonna get side-eyed to oblivion or want to throw myself into the sun out of embarrassment, because boy howdy am i tired of literally vibrating into orbit over my want to write and yet absolutely paralyzed by my fear of ending up on yet another site where no one ever gets excited to write with me since i'm just another number to them + my presence wouldn't be missed

(i guess i just did it, but like, in proper search form rather than scream into the void form)

i really miss having someone else get excited about writing with me for a plot they have been screaming in my dms about

just. really hammers home how much i've felt strung along just because i'm there rather than because i'm wanted, i guess.

my kingdom for my super niche book crossover ship

kyrian hunter x aloysius pendergast will just live in my head rent-free forever now-

man, i'd be so feral for an actual functioning polyship in play, you have no idea-

gotta be honest, i really wish we'd ctrl + z the new trend of just posting up super basic graphics for interest checks, if only because i want to know whether i need to be getting hyped for, idk, a basic slice of life modern fantasy or a huge plot-driven cyberpunk political fantasy and i can't always tell with these new buzz style ics-

welp, guess i'm gonna be coming out of forum rp retirement

it's been many days but i'm still thinking about the speaker that literally told one lady she shouldn't have a court anymore after she spilled her tea :skull:

ngl, it's been kind of nice, just tinkering with old skin ideas i abandoned after a lot of months of just. not thinking about forum rp.