<sup>Sometimes I really hate the way I am especially when I know there are countless others in the same position as me and they are doing fine. Is it in my genes, the way I was raised a combination of both? Who knows, all I know is one minute I'm fine, the next I'm questioning everything I am.

An example of this madness is, I make a post, no likes, someone else makes a similar post bam likes. Suddenly I'm questioning my worth, and hating the liking system, thinking it's a popularity contest! And then finally settling down and realizing how dramatic and ridiculous I'm being. But the feelings when they come are so strong and consuming. And then I just feel exhausted after it all, and think about all the posts that have 0 likes, and the people behind them don't care.

I mean there are some really cool people on here that I secretly admire because of how free they appear online, like no insecurities ever bother them...but maybe that's just how they present themselves, and they are actually like me (most of the time), fretting and keeping it hidden from others.

I just wanted to write about this. I hope maybe next time I'm feeling dumb like this I can read back this exposing message of my inner workings and not feel so worked up.</sup>

my dog does the tippytap and i want to cuddle her all day

Had a wild dream about creating a new rp featuring characters reclaiming boards from an evil empire.

the sole kindness of being offered cheese puffs and told i can take as many as i want by my coworker made my day.

all i have left to do for thesis is write my conclusion, fix my bibliography, and edit. submission is the 29th. oh my god i'm so close. i want to Cry.

did yall know that Power Wash Simulator was released by Square Enix? Cuz I sure didn't.

why did my mom park my car in front of the drive way.... i

the urge to make a forum discussion post thingy to find out where people are from. Not like in a creepy stalker sort of way, but like... a cultural experiences kind of way.

i wish disney would've explored more about the history between the collectors vs titans in the owl house hnghh ;;

i will never forgive disney over the injustice that is the owl house as a whole

Do it.

Also staff note: If you feel like something could cause infighting/controversial/vague post galores, please message me and I can see what I can to host a thread myself and let people talk for a short period of time discussion wise. I basically just want to make sure I'm here to make sure nothing ends up on fire, kthnx

In other news, my random thought is I finally completed something that took me six months in game and I have to do it even more for the next area and I want to throw myself into lava. (If you guessed the trees in Genshin the answer would be yes.)

... being a mother is hard sometimes...

My anime confession is that Turbinid-dragons are my favourite MiA monstrosity because they're just abyssal sea horses