I'm so tired. But it's like a carwreck. I can't stop looking at it.

Tired of being sick. Would like my focus back T_T

maybe my skin ain't looking so bad after all

Thank god it’s Friday

I make sure I go over to my neighbor's after lunch cause I get awkward when she forces me to eat food, lol. I love her but sometimes I just want to eat a pack of crackers and eat a larger dinner cause I know that my husband and her love to go out to eat and I am so tired. Please stop kidnapping me to eattttt. I love you all, let's play a board game instead.

it be chilly today

do you ever crave a food so much that when you finally have it, you've lost your appetite for it? :thonk:

Migraines are the worst thing to ever exist.

Last week or so, I've been like "why am I so depressed and unmotivated lately" and feeling down on myself only to have to repeatedly remind myself that I had a death in the family and a stroke in the family within less than a month of each other AND around the holidays & my birthday. Very "it's a cow farm, there's going to be cows". Life's shitty and it's okay to be sad sometimes.

sorry to hear about your family situation Beetle, i hope things start looking up.

This is something I stand by: It’s impressive to make something, anything.

Even if something doesn’t turn out the way I wanted, be it writing, or art, or some fumbling with code, I think about how it would be worse if I hadn’t tried at all. If I had stopped as soon as something didn’t turn out the way I wanted, or didn’t function the way I intended, or I made some silly mistake, I would obviously be not be at the point I am at. There’s always something to learn, some experience to be gained, and fun to be made in not getting caught up in the idea of “This will be bad”...

and the process is fun too, admittedly, as long as I don’t get stuck in a cycle of negativity.

I love looking at my old art, even from months ago, even from years ago, and comparing it to my art now — there’s visible progress, but it also makes me appreciate what I’ve made, as it is rarely as bad as I remember it. I’m good at making sure I don’t compare my art to others in ways that aren’t useful — I note techniques, etc.— and it’s useful to compare my art to my older art. There is very tangible and visual progress I’ve made by sticking to it, and sticking to it...is so damn difficult, but I gotta make art!

This is a subject I’m super passionate about and can and will ramble on about it for text walls

I can see the clouds moving from my room

It brings me great joy when fictional characters i like are even a bigger simp than i am