even though im technically esl, i do feel like i don't have it as hard as other esl who has to learn the language from scratch, especially on their own. i'm technically bilingual since in the philippines, english and filipino are spoken in a day-to-day basis here and schools mandate strong english fluency. 

english has been my strongest subject in school but apparently, it doesn't translate as well in writing. when i tried writing in my native language for fun, i didn't expect it to be so simple and fluid. my filipino isn't great and i don't even read filipino books to practice my vocabulary. i realized that my writing is largely influenced by my mother tongue's emotional trait. i'm wordy, because in filipino, you emphasize things by repeating words. formal filipino is also naturally lengthy, but it sounds elegant. it's different in english, where brevity and precision is considered the hallmark of mastery of language. 

a lot of filipino words and saying also relate to the heart and emotions; i noticed then that i write that way in english. it was interesting and eye-opening realizing how my culture is still brought over when translated without me realizing it.

i'm terrible at idioms and i feel like i shouldn't have to learn them because that's deeply rooted in western culture >> why should i work hard to pick it up and ingrain it in my writing... i'll just translate our local idioms haha

so any other esl rpers here in pixel with some experience or realization they have rping in english?