i can hyperfixate on dog breeds, conformation, and color genetics for 48+ hrs of every waking hour. i've never stopped thinking about how tan masks over the base coat color and pattern modifiers like nonagouti and merle whilst being masked by the whitemarks of shetland sheepdogs and other dog breeds which can have the tan markings such as dachunds, dobermans, australian shepherds, etc. incredible.

It's samui desu ne season...

friends: hey we like you around
me, neck deep in mental illnesses until brain is stupid: that's nice of you to say but i don't understand how it relates to my situation, anyway -

okay my patience with having no functional attention span has run out, this is bs

so tired but i don't want to sleep; but if i don't sleep, i won't stop being tired. hate that. s'not fair.

i've sufficiently made myself sad about obscure fictional lesbian furry characters. now i can be productive.

describing my gender identity as "cis girl but (customized)", like a custom built pc.

i built it myself! : D

here's a handful of arts i've done since last time =w=b
leap's swole af oc lucretia for a little gift exchange<3
a monster design for a homebrew boss in my arknights dnd one-shot (with dinosaurs)
catgirl nun nikki mindcrime!
melon's sexy oc na!
leap's oc orphia and my nun oc novelle comm for leap<3
more gay texusiai arknights, for both texas's birthday and pride month, no less
leap's oc lorelei and tyranitar for their birthday last year<33
texusiai arknights aaa
texusiai arknights tail brushing
leap's oc dt jesus comm for leap!!
saria x silence arknights for lesbian day
me and leap as foxes uwu
nikki and mary mindcrime as warrior cats
this texas (and exusiai) arknights animation

and a metric. frick. ton. of. tabletop. ocs. and. arknights ocs. omigosh.

if i could heckimggg wordsmith good, oooh, i would be so powerful - i could write a little lesbian dragon riders novel fashioned precisely for me alone perhaps - but instead at any given moment i don't remember almost all vocabulary ever.

ps. 275 f2p rolls saved and ready for qiubai.

the other day, i was trying to format an Idea (ttrpg character sheet) and, indesign-less as i was, began going back and forth between google docs and spreadsheets trying to figure out which would be easiest to design/format a page with, before remembering that i could totally do all this on any spare old proboards site of mine with only the built in div css style codes <:

except upon opening a blank new post, i realized i've forgotten everything i used to know and can't even code a basic table anymore. _{how weak i've become...!! *clenches fist*}

(in the end i've been using excel for this endeavor by turning all the tiles into tiny squares because i'm insane.)

so apparently through my sheer butch/futch lesbian energy, the arknights devs buffed my height and i grew 2 inches taller as of my dr appointment yesterday. a decade after what would be assumed to be my final growth spurt i guess.

and then a bunch of trans lesbians in another chat asked me to take their height too so now i am honorarily like 7 ft tall. soon i will be unstoppable.

i'm lactose intolerant so that means all drinks except water are off the table.
coffees? gone. smoothies? absolutely not.

"but what about juices and tea? what about soy milk or oat milk?"
not them either, my system will find the nonexistent milk in there somehow.
and destroy me.

all i hecking do is work full time, eat, and cry to warrior cat animations.