wanna plot but don't wanna write.

wanna draw but c a n ' t . f o c u s o h m y g o s h .

i wanna talk about arknights, i always wanna talk about arknights ;o

01. Favorite operator(s)? Least favorite(s)? First E1 and first E2?

favorite operator is ch'en! i love her personality and her character arc in the main plot. ;O; texas is a very close second, i love her vibes and her personality and story is so interesting to me. some other favorites are melantha for her design and her skin, surtr for her art and her vibes, kal'tsit, w, reed, siege (always love the saberface of every gacha), frostleaf, haze, dusk, zima, saga, hoshiguma, exusiai, saria, silence, mostima, lappland, nian, nearl, weedy, franka, skadi, platinum, mint, projekt red, utage, scavenger, breeze, glaucus, blue poison, eunectes, gavial, robin, indigo, fang, dur-nar....

least favorite operators are.... *looks at my full page of e0 lv1 6-5 star men* hm, a mystery. well i just am a bit meh towards some operators, but i don't particularly dislike any of them tbh!

i think my first e1 was probably melantha! i adore her. my first e2 was definitely texas.

02. Your 'main' team, if you've got one?

every good map clear starts with a texas followed by exusiai. the dream team, the otp, they do not get replaced on the field, and exusiai's blessing always goes to texas. for my healers, i bring the rhine lab divorced and back together moms, saria and silence, then sometimes their daughter ifrit for arts dps laning if there's any ifrit lane. sometimes ifrit brings her sheepy girlfriend, eyjafjalla if even more arts dps is needed. for big meta clears, i bring my rare pair blaze and surtr to hold lanes with their skill 2's. if fighting a boss, surtr brings her s3 and goes to town. whenever i get the chance, i'll bring my allstar otp, ch'en and hoshiguma. nowadays it's either guard or sniper ch'en depending on what works. every hour is kal'tsit appreciation hours and mon3tr will steal the show. is there a chance to rock out with guard skadi and specter? then heck yeah i'll do it (like with cc#3).

so essentially my main team is just all the ships and favs who can be applied to a map and then going from there to see what's needed jsdjakldjla.

03. Favorite event so far? Least favorite?

my favorite event so far has beeeen uhhhhhhh...i like most of them a lot!! some of my favs in no order are who is real, darknights memoir, code of brawl, gavial the great chief returns, dossoles, a walk in the dust, ceobe's fungimist, maria nearl, undertides, even operation originium dust cause co op was super fun with friends!!

my least favorite events were probably the grani and the knight's treasure and twiloght of wolumonde events but by no means did i not enjoy them at all, i liked them too!

04. Hardest stage for you so far?

h8-4 hhhhhhhhhhhh...i have no plans to borrow silverashe i'm just gonna...y'know what i have ch'alter now maybe i can do this -

05. Upcoming content you're most excited for?

nearl the radiant knight and arknights anime and ch9 and ch10 and invitation to wine and yeah just!!! everything is so exciting all the time!! my life may be a daily snooze fest of disappointment but the hype from every new ak update in both cn and global has been keeping me going and happy!! also en dub voiceovers too! whomever allegra clark voices is confirmed canon sapphic btw. i can't wait.

you can add me via Shizuka#8953 buuuut i usually tend to have only like 1 slot open on my friend list at a time and i'll probably be kind of picky on who i keep in my friend list. :'D if we're like mutuals already i'll write a note down and make sure to never delete you but otherwise i can't guarantee i'll keep you added if i don't know you well.

look at my signature i spent w a y too much time green-screen editing it in photoshop.

100% surtr hours.

hello my emotions are still destroyed over stage R8-9 in Chapter 8 of Arknights and it's big spoilers but anyone who plays arknights and is that far in the game might know. TuTb i cried for a WEEK over some npcs!!!

also i'm the girl who broke down sobbing while reading the Yu-Gi-Oh! manga at the point where Atem went back home in Millenium World.

one of those days when feeling like i'll always be a product of my trauma. wish the imaginary abuser in my head would stop arguing with me about everything and compelling me to resume my bad habits on a regular basis. (:

learning about a new creature on a yt documentary and immediately running to google images like

show me... her.

been here for like 3 years now according tomy account registration but i'm still called a 'new member' bc i only pop up out of the blue every 6 months or so to pretend like i've been here all along for 2 minutes before i'm gone like the wind once more.

hmmmm edgy, goth, sapphic, fire, swords, women in suits, black and white, red accent, that stoic but thoughtful stare with well hidden emotions...yeah.

does my character have to have a backstory and developed personality even at all? can't i just enjoy thinking about their existence all hours of the day with all 100% of my energy?

i'm once again on a warrior cat multi-animator project binge watch for the past few days and this one comment on one of the videos encapsulates the mood of all millenials who grew up with warrior cats and are probably still into it, a little bit:

" I am a whole ass adult still crying over these damn cats "

gosh i wanna rp warrior cats again so darn bad!!!! but i'm barely active enough with writing in order to rp let alone try to admin a site again. so i'm going to do what i always love to do and that is think about and plan a whole hecking site (plot, mechanics, rules, ways to make it beginner friendly as well as adhd friendly) in my head but never actually do anything about it. ever.

ps. this is one of the multi-animator projects i was listening to on loop all day long. and singing to.
and crying to.

02. Bad Reputation

that time in a dnd campaign my werewolf hataro got outted for being a werewolf so they shapeshifted and ran away through a city in a blind panic until the party's dragon found and captured them and brought them home. usually the whole werewolf ordeal is pretty self explanatory for 'bad reputation' tho right? XD

20. Fireside

one of many evenings playing the Never Have I Ever drinking game with the party, maybe while huddled around a campfire. featuring Miss Melonade ♥ 's and pharaoh leap 's pathfinder characters, na (middle) and junko (right)! eunika is pouting again and it's either because she dislikes alchohol or because she's asking herself why she has a crush on na -