so apparently through my sheer butch/futch lesbian energy, the arknights devs buffed my height and i grew 2 inches taller as of my dr appointment yesterday. a decade after what would be assumed to be my final growth spurt i guess.

and then a bunch of trans lesbians in another chat asked me to take their height too so now i am honorarily like 7 ft tall. soon i will be unstoppable.

i'm lactose intolerant so that means all drinks except water are off the table.
coffees? gone. smoothies? absolutely not.

"but what about juices and tea? what about soy milk or oat milk?"
not them either, my system will find the nonexistent milk in there somehow.
and destroy me.

all i hecking do is work full time, eat, and cry to warrior cat animations.

okay i'll give this a try

- i place my gnun face down, in defen - oh she's dead again
- local fire lesbian turning all the frickin' worms gay
- so can i take a nap now? *is in a dungeon filled with hundreds of corpses*
- giant pointy hat energy deletes your braincells oh nyoo OwO
- rev-awoo-tion calling!! reeev-awoo-tion calling! (i can't fight my demons they know how to swim)
- would you care to be murdered? ;D sliced in twain? ;DD your entrails strewn across the streets? ;;DDD
- drunk kitty samurai tigerkin
- little fox? now BIG FOX!!! HAS A SWORD!!!!

a rp where maybe just plots, drabbles, doodles, art, even playlists hold as much value in the "activity" of a site based rp community as do rp posts...? where it's not always about churning out posts all the time and maybe just plotting and coming up with ideas alone is enough for those ideas to be canon in the characters' stories.

unrelated but i wonder how cool would it be if there existed rp sites that were part-ttrpg style. people plot and rp as normal, but maybe once or twice a month, certain mods or even members sign up to be dms and play out one-shots with appropriate sized groups of on-site characters. could be missions or slice of life social activities or classic dungeon delving for the fantasy combat themed rps.

wanna plot but don't wanna write.

wanna draw but c a n ' t . f o c u s o h m y g o s h .

i wanna talk about arknights, i always wanna talk about arknights ;o

01. Favorite operator(s)? Least favorite(s)? First E1 and first E2?

favorite operator is ch'en! i love her personality and her character arc in the main plot. ;O; texas is a very close second, i love her vibes and her personality and story is so interesting to me. some other favorites are melantha for her design and her skin, surtr for her art and her vibes, kal'tsit, w, reed, siege (always love the saberface of every gacha), frostleaf, haze, dusk, zima, saga, hoshiguma, exusiai, saria, silence, mostima, lappland, nian, nearl, weedy, franka, skadi, platinum, mint, projekt red, utage, scavenger, breeze, glaucus, blue poison, eunectes, gavial, robin, indigo, fang, dur-nar....

least favorite operators are.... *looks at my full page of e0 lv1 6-5 star men* hm, a mystery. well i just am a bit meh towards some operators, but i don't particularly dislike any of them tbh!

i think my first e1 was probably melantha! i adore her. my first e2 was definitely texas.

02. Your 'main' team, if you've got one?

every good map clear starts with a texas followed by exusiai. the dream team, the otp, they do not get replaced on the field, and exusiai's blessing always goes to texas. for my healers, i bring the rhine lab divorced and back together moms, saria and silence, then sometimes their daughter ifrit for arts dps laning if there's any ifrit lane. sometimes ifrit brings her sheepy girlfriend, eyjafjalla if even more arts dps is needed. for big meta clears, i bring my rare pair blaze and surtr to hold lanes with their skill 2's. if fighting a boss, surtr brings her s3 and goes to town. whenever i get the chance, i'll bring my allstar otp, ch'en and hoshiguma. nowadays it's either guard or sniper ch'en depending on what works. every hour is kal'tsit appreciation hours and mon3tr will steal the show. is there a chance to rock out with guard skadi and specter? then heck yeah i'll do it (like with cc#3).

so essentially my main team is just all the ships and favs who can be applied to a map and then going from there to see what's needed jsdjakldjla.

03. Favorite event so far? Least favorite?

my favorite event so far has beeeen uhhhhhhh...i like most of them a lot!! some of my favs in no order are who is real, darknights memoir, code of brawl, gavial the great chief returns, dossoles, a walk in the dust, ceobe's fungimist, maria nearl, undertides, even operation originium dust cause co op was super fun with friends!!

my least favorite events were probably the grani and the knight's treasure and twiloght of wolumonde events but by no means did i not enjoy them at all, i liked them too!

04. Hardest stage for you so far?

h8-4 hhhhhhhhhhhh...i have no plans to borrow silverashe i'm just gonna...y'know what i have ch'alter now maybe i can do this -

05. Upcoming content you're most excited for?

nearl the radiant knight and arknights anime and ch9 and ch10 and invitation to wine and yeah just!!! everything is so exciting all the time!! my life may be a daily snooze fest of disappointment but the hype from every new ak update in both cn and global has been keeping me going and happy!! also en dub voiceovers too! whomever allegra clark voices is confirmed canon sapphic btw. i can't wait.

you can add me via Shizuka#8953 buuuut i usually tend to have only like 1 slot open on my friend list at a time and i'll probably be kind of picky on who i keep in my friend list. :'D if we're like mutuals already i'll write a note down and make sure to never delete you but otherwise i can't guarantee i'll keep you added if i don't know you well.

look at my signature i spent w a y too much time green-screen editing it in photoshop.

100% surtr hours.

hello my emotions are still destroyed over stage R8-9 in Chapter 8 of Arknights and it's big spoilers but anyone who plays arknights and is that far in the game might know. TuTb i cried for a WEEK over some npcs!!!

also i'm the girl who broke down sobbing while reading the Yu-Gi-Oh! manga at the point where Atem went back home in Millenium World.

one of those days when feeling like i'll always be a product of my trauma. wish the imaginary abuser in my head would stop arguing with me about everything and compelling me to resume my bad habits on a regular basis. (:

learning about a new creature on a yt documentary and immediately running to google images like

show me... her.

been here for like 3 years now according tomy account registration but i'm still called a 'new member' bc i only pop up out of the blue every 6 months or so to pretend like i've been here all along for 2 minutes before i'm gone like the wind once more.

hmmmm edgy, goth, sapphic, fire, swords, women in suits, black and white, red accent, that stoic but thoughtful stare with well hidden emotions...yeah.