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02: CLEAN SLATE
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Her fingers grip the porcelain as if she wants to crack it. Smashed shards distort the face that looks back at her but there is no mistaking it is her - drained, perhaps, heavy set dark circles and a certain sickly paleness in the fluorescent light of the bathroom - but it’s still her. Her hair hangs over her features, the bright orange beginning to fade, no longer the colour of sunset, of liquid flame poured forth from a brazier. Despite every new line on her face, it is still her.

Should that realization be a comfort?

The hydrogen peroxide stings against the open cuts, one bisecting her bottom lip, another few across her cheeks. When she carefully tries to pry the shards of glass out with shaky hands, she accidentally cuts her hands. The sink fills with her blood, washed down by lukewarm water that spins idly towards the drain from the steady trickle of the tap.

A fresh start, they promised, as they placed a handgun between her palms. After today, she would not have to be herself anymore - a new name, a new place, a whole new life was waiting for her as long as she did one last job. Words like spun sugar dripped into her ear by a snake that had already crushed her long before she fell through the glass.

Sometimes, the radio mocks her. It knows about the incident, but it doesn’t know enough to do anything but frustrate her with the interruption of the smooth lilting vocals. She knows what happened. She doesn’t need reminding of the fact that she does not in fact get her new life as cleanly as was promised.

Her lashes rest against her cheeks as she exhales, taking a moment to steady herself on the sink again. The knife is there within her reach.

Instead, Annie takes a deep breath. She washes her hands in the cheap motel soap that refuses to lather, and when she is content that there is no more blood underneath her nails, she opens her eye up with her fingers. A bloodshot pupil stares back at her, but it is human in its entirety, rolled upwards, downwards, to the left and right, searching for abnormalities. Teal looks back.

She removes the eyepatch from her right eye. The eye that looks back is not bloodshot - it is simply red. There is nothing there but red, not an empty socket, but the red liquid that shifts beneath the membrane. It is normal.

No, it’s her normal.

She checks her teeth, fingers thumbing over molars for any traces of sharpness. Her right incisor is too sharp, nicking the pad of her index finger forcing her to taste iron. It has always smelled so sweet, even when it’s hers. It would be even more satisfying if it was someone else’s. The image of sinking her teeth into the flesh of a willing victim, or even better, one that has been chased down like a rabbit running from the wolf’s jaws.

A fresh start - she was promised. The idea is shoved down as she takes the knife in her right hand, shaking slightly with the knowledge of what she has to do. She mumbles that she is human like a prayer, pleading with some unforeseen force.

She presses the point of the knife against the thin membrane of her right eye. She is met with her own grim expression, chest rising and falling with the rhythm of prey rather than predator. It is the moment of anticipation that is the worst, and she tells herself this directly as she plunges the knife through the membrane and screams.

Her head smashes against the porcelain, slumping the floor. Her body shakes and shivers, trying to force the air into her lungs.

It is her normal to continue the same loop until she can get her clean start. To make the feelings go away, to make the cravings stop. She can see it looming over as she lays there completely helpless, blood rushing from the gouged eye, taking her chin between its claws as it purrs. When it leans down to lay a kiss upon her forehead, it is so soft with her that she can almost forget what it is.

“Sleep, my little wolf, there is always another day for us.”

last edit on Apr 29, 2024 22:09:27 GMT by safi
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as someone who is currently running Rise of Tiamat on a forum, I just want to let you know that it is possible and honestly, also is very fun to use dnd mechanics! plus honestly i think i've played so much dnd that i just really enjoy the process of building now


but yes i would be interested either way - im guessing this would be around the same time as bg3?
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06. How Have You Been?
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08. Call & Response
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10. Risk
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chronic thread hoarder here :salute:

personally if i have a good tracker and spread my threads out with my characters i have no problems with keeping on top of my threads with a week approx turnaround. some threads get more attention bc they hold my brain in their hands. i think as well having more threads helps me to keep my momentum as long pauses in posting can really hurt my motivation and i've realized that i always need to feel like im a little behind on my posting to really get going and knock out as many as i want.

i think having more threads also covers for partners differing posting speeds, since naturally if i work from oldest > newest i can fall in line with faster posters once my slower threads are out of the way. having the "week" deadline (that i never stick to, but most of the time get nearish) also helps. i will 100% leave someone on owed though if i can't whip up a decent reply bc in my head a bad response is worse than a good response that takes a lot of time to get to you and i like to give my partner the best post that i can give em out of politeness.

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would anyone actually be interested in ttrpg stuff on a forum?

i've seen a few pop up but i've always seen them close soon and i genuinely wonder why, but as someone who thinks about dnd/pathfinder way too much i really do want to make one eventually. i would love to run pathfinder but i feel like nobody has played 1e apart from the boomers.

im currently working on a concept which takes a lot of inspiration from soulsborne, nier replicant/drakengard revolving what is basically medieval post apocalypse where gods destroyed the world and living in the aftermath. also there are dragons, bc what good fantasy world doesn't have dragons as a main feature? i know what im about lol
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there r too many good games......

dragon's dogma at the end of the month is so exciting, still have not finished p3r, but yet im replaying divinity 2 again bc i want bg3 but also do not want to play bg3, again, bc i crave dnd content and this is the closest to it. also the pathfinder games r looking appealing again. how is one supposed to be productive under these circumstances.
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omg i actually can't believe this is actually getting interest!!!

i've been hard at work regardless i got hit by the "must do things" bug to ignore the job im paid to do but here's a teaser with things subject to change.

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do not fear what you are about to suffer, behold, the devil is about to throw some of you into prison, that you may be tested, and for ten days you shall have tribulation, be faithful onto death, and i shall give you the crown of life


>“Midway upon the journey of our life I found myself within a forest dark, For the straightforward pathway had been lost. Ah me! how hard a thing it is to say What was this forest savage, rough, and stern, Which in the very thought renews the fear. So bitter is it, death is little more; But of the good to treat, which there I found, Speak will I of the other things I saw there.”


In the last year, you woke up in a town that you had never been before, surrounded for miles and miles by fine crystalline sand that shimmered under the sunlight. This town is the settlement that is known as Purgatory, the city at the end of existence, and has become the last bastion for humanity after the Rapture. It is a city that is seemingly a blend of traditional housing from various cultures mixed alongside modern convivences of electricity, plumbing and a feeling of the old and the new smashed together.

People do not age. People do not thirst or hunger. People cannot die - people can feel pain and be hurt, but they can never die. People can never be born. Despite speaking their own individual languages, everybody can understand each other's words perfectly. The sun and moon are both constantly in the sky, with one side caught in the bright hot haze of a midsummer's day and the other caught in the tranquillity of a brisk midwinter night, streets dusted with snow. The wind never howls. The rain never falls. There is never a cloud in the sky.

Despite appearing finite, one will quickly find if they try to leave Purgatory in any way they will continue to walk through endless mismatched streets. If you wish to go somewhere specific, you will always be no more than a five minute walk away. Purgatory does not obey the traditional laws of space and time - but rest assured, gravity, inertia - these forces are still very much at play. After all, this is not a dream nor is it the afterlife.

There is only one exit from the city of Purgatory - to the Labyrinth at the End of Existence, Tartarus. At it's heart, the power to recreate the world in the victor's very own image, and inherit the power of the gods to begin anew.




Hello! This is a very quick interest check for a product of brainrot that my or not happen. It has been a long time since I have even considered putting myself in roleplaying staffing position lol. This will take inspiration from Shin Megami Tensei and Persona, as well as the Book of Revelations and The Divine Comedy, a mix of ancient and modern achievements of humanity, myths and legends. The site will be focused around the goal of reaching the bottom of the Labyrinth at the End of Existence, known as Tartarus, in order to claim the prize at the bottom - one person or group will be able to claim the Fruit of Knowledge that when eaten, will conclude the Rapture and allow the creation of a new world that is governed by victors who eat the fruit.

The roleplay itself will focus around adventuring into Tartarus, forming bonds with other players and characters, developing Personas and building them through acquiring new skills, new passives, increasing stats all through items that are received from completing quests within Tartarus. It will also incorporate light TTRPG mechanics, but will not have a traditional leveling system. I plan to try to implement a crafting system. There will be no factions unless the players choose to create factions, but there will be NPCs in the form of angels and devils that can offer the players various boons, as well as advice on how to proceed.

Please leave a note if you're interested, if not, please have a nice day <3


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