Saintsbridge remembers—

i like having weird names bc it further entices me to like people’s posts and they just get a nice surprise in their alerts every few weeks

I just like them because it takes zero effort but can bring a momentary smile (or slight twitch of the mouth) to someone!

cel doesn't shut up about her trip pt. infinity. oh my god the olivia rodrigo concert was worth it. actual healing experience. being able to yell out "we both drew blood but those cuts were never equal" and the entire bridge of all-american bitch and vampire has been some of the most cathartic moments of my life

no wonder I just want to go home to Japan I have nothing planned this first week and I'm jetlagged and I keep being left alone in the house because stuffs on and someone has to be around for the dogs

I want to go home

it's been years and i'm still emotionally crushed that i wasn't there for it 😭

this.

also if that only person is just me every time, that's enough for me. i love names that are either so on the nose it makes you roll your eyes or it's like. ringo amidala. if you're curious, his fc was spitfire from air gear LMFAO

i probably worded it badly but for me personally, it's easier if you're already friends. You don't have to be friends to be comfortable or to rp, and I don't necessarily expect it, but someone who isn't at a comfortable friendliness is less likely to get bites from me as if I have to contact someone I'm not friendly to makes the anxiety ten times worse. I do not think they are friends with me because they rp with me, since that seems to be how that entire thing was taken. I'm also viewing my current friend group under the lens that I met 90% of them through rp.

That being said off-the-cuff due to trauma I tend to form strong attachments which is also why I tend to prefer roleplaying with people that are friends or friend-adjacent and will show the preference. I'm not going to pretend I don't have a preference when that would be a lie. But if something that is my own take seems parasocial or emotionally intrusive when it isn't, that also seems like a you thing. 

tldr; due to my own experiences, people I roleplay with that do not ghost end up becoming friends anyways. It eventually leads into doing things that are not rp, such as gaming together, dnd exc. It makes things easier on me, hence I was sort of saying a statement because of it. I do not think everyone needs to hold hands in order to rp, do not take it that way.

Not once did i think i want to be a beautiful or even good-looking woman. I always thought it would have been cool if i were a handsome man

🤡 #dumberonhindsight

i was meant to dress cute, walk through museums, and drink overpriced drinks in this life i don't want to go back home

I think one of the hardest things about getting back into the swing of roleplaying as a grown-ass adult who's been out of the hobby since 2020 is forging new RP connections. So many of the people I've bonded with over RP have either fallen off the face of the Internet altogether (I.e. I don't think they even remember they had a Discord account or something along those lines and I have no other ways to contact them), or those who I still have contact with have long since moved on to other interests/hobbies. So either I have no chance of getting my old buddies back into RPing, or I will have to forge new connections all over again, which can be kinda scary at times.

now in the genshin exhibit of the SEA aquarium, remembered my flight home is next week, and man i do not want to go home