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found it hard to fill up 5 instances of good vibes so I'll just try to make a game plan going forward.
1. find the foolproof method to plot meaningful stories that both writers can love -- equally. passive plotters burn me out the most so... plan rn is to stop hoping for much if they don't even try to lead the plotting/offer ideas ig...
2. be an overall better person by next year. mentally, communicatively, in terms of positive vibes, etc. be back to how I was before I came back from my rp hiatus -- someone eager to make new friends, learn more about people, if only a bit naively. though I think that's kinda hard now
3. code a skin, code two skins, code three. stop being so lazy and try to spin it as :sparkles: minimalist :sparkles: whether or not I release it doesn't matter. I like to do it, and it's honestly the only thing that's making me still want to stay (aside from super good plots and ships but that's always uncertain)
4. find my place in this whole mess. I've been through three friends groups that ended in gaslighting, ultimatums, and more ultimatums in that order, in a row, so idk what does that tell me. really don't want to get cornered in some gc again lmao
5. stand up for myself? stop trying to keep the peace at the expense of myself. this is still an rp goal because... er. only online people ever treat me this way. irl I have my rbf to protect me hehe (until people get to know me then they bully me affectionately, but never crossing the line ha). additionally, stand up for myself without exploding because of accumulated stress/nerves/fear. TIL emotional delay is a thing and that CALM is a big fat lie
6. .... have fun, preferably with people :pained: I alr know how to enjoy my time alone, but this is a community-based hobby so... here's to hoping.
7. SEVEN LUCKY NUMBER SO HAVE FUN NUMBER TWOOOOO
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last edit on Dec 26, 2023 6:52:25 GMT by Deleted
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