Me, a devout anti-capitalist, every week watching HBO's Gilded Age when George Russell is destroying peoples lives but also SIMPING his wife in every way possible and being the perfect husband for her:

PLS as we all fight over who gets to be the diamond of the season and as we all make bids on dukes.

craving to write bible-level disasters

i've never done this before...

1. be married/engaged on day one. tired of this bronte sister spinster life wtf. pushing myself to stop being so shy and barge into ppls DMs with the marriage proposals all typed up, the ceremonial boars all perfectly roasted. i'll even create a "our perfect, dreamy destination wedding" pinterest folder for us like i do for rlrp too

2. i'm obsessed with the idea of writing a dangerous liaisons plot since watching the (1988 vers) movie last week. for anyone who doesn't know it's abt a pair of amoral lovers-turned-rivals who amuse themselves by ruining the love lives of others before ultimately destroying each other. basically my goal here is to write a character that gets utterly destroyed by someone else... pettily/romantically(?) and mine destroys them in return. entering my dangerous liaison era.

3. i'm echoing phim with the need to return to my camp roots. yes, angst and drama are always in but i love it more when my character is comedic or vain at the most inopportune time more than anything else: a character that embodies the most campiest manhwa tropes that i love so much. the animanga rpc needs more daisy buchanans and lestat de lioncourts running around causing cringe. more whimsy pls

4. thread with lovelorn i heard from a certain birdie that we'd make great threads but this requires her to rp!!!!

5. continue to subvert expectations icly and oocly

6. esoteric victoriana / gaslamp fantasy rp of my dreams

7. RF a thread. write more than one post in the same thread; somehow i'm only capable of RFing 2-3 posts in the same thread before wiped out, but what i am aiming for is RFing 5+ posts in the span of a few hours.

is it too early to start a 2024 rp goals thread

I am also sometimes anxious reading replies from others that pertain to my posts, or to the reception of my writing. And I'm not sure as to why, considering I've been part of this hobby since I was 15yo. I have this rule of thumb that I won't read tags until I am ready to reply, which I find sometimes helps mitigate the anxiety; or if I read a tag, regardless if I am willing to write or not, I must reply within the day while my reaction is fresh, lest I become dissonant. That is something I've been working on this past year, and I think I've been successful with for the past several months. Now if I can write 5+ RF posts within several hours... that would truly be something.

Also can sometimes be anxious about sharing my thoughts or reactions to my thread/rp partners, which is paradoxical of me because I am social in servers (at least I hope I am to others) but also shy :flushedhide_emoji:

watched dangerous liaisons today and now i crave to write a scheme of deliberate sabotage and seduction that involves multiple ppl

i know i am olde when my lower back aches :sobspls:

fairytale site but ala shrekverse campiness

Definitely when I am vibing with a thread. It doesn't happen as often as it use to, but I love it when a partner and myself set aside time, sometimes the whole weekend, or whenever our days off are in tandem, just to blitz through a thread. Especially when it's a "disaster thread" aka lots of drama and bickering and character growth lmfao

where is the right hand of light to my left hand of darkness?

sometimes u gotta be like “okay” & leave that shit alone