So, when I was really young, I made this character who used a halberd and hit people with it in order to heal them — this was on a lark, a joke made in our site’s chat at the time!

She ultimately became a rather serious character, very important to the group as the...only healer somehow! And due to the power scaling on the site, she ended up somehow becoming an extremely powerful healing...we’re talking almost with the ability to resurrect characters type-stuff.

The group was doing too well.
I got tired of her being so good at healing.

So, when a character died, she tried to revive them from the dead...but magical backlash happened, and she started decaying, slowly turning into an undead-sort-of-thing, with her ability to heal gone.

Life happened, as it does, and I ended up not writing on that site anymore. We all had plans for what would happen, character reactions, how much harder of a time the group would have...some other great character development plots. It was a long time ago but I still think about it sometimes.

- Stop spending time with people and on sites that have standards which I can meet but ultimately stress me out. “Prestige” writing circles can often cultivate an environment of barely-contained rivalry and competition wherein it will drain the fun out of me writing and interacting with other writers.

- There’s a reason why I called the group of people who I made a forum with, did anime faceclaims with (and even edited their claims to better fit their characters sometimes) friends and not the 800 or much more word count minimum “literate” RP forums I played on during the same time who would have been extremely passive-aggressive towards me for participating in any RP that did faceclaims.

- There is no shame in experimentation with writing styles that go beyond standard manuscript writing and as matter of fact, it’s fun to stylize writing in ways I would never do for one of my novels! As a matter of fact, RP is so much more fun like this. Basically: please chill, past self.

- You can ask people to edit their templates to be more readable to you whenever they’re roleplaying with you, or edit them using inspect element/extensions if you’re too shy to ask them. Most people are understanding, and if they’re not, then it’s fine to no longer want to play with them.

- You don’t have to apply to become staff on every site that has applications open. You can just chill. Please just chill sometimes.

- When everyone’s a stranger to you, you’re also a stranger to them.

My health has been so bad lately but what a relief it is to get some writing done. Feels like I'm finally shaking off the RP-rust, though I always want to rewrite everything I ever post, what a curse

I'm so glad I got back into RP. I have only had positive experiences so far. I do feel like I'm a lot more shy than I used to be somehow, like oohhh my nerves, when engaging in RP communities used to be a lot more natural to me. Wish I had more energy.

Also, I can't wait for fall also! Because the summer heat has been melting me...but I also just love fall.

I need a vacation so bad. Of maybe 1000000 years.

• Magic (High/Low)
• Fantasy (High/Dark/Low)
• Original art allowed
• Shapeshifters
  
• Original
• Medieval/Other Historical
• Horror

• Modern IRL
  
• Strict activity requirements
• Mandatory Discord*
  

Pillars of Eternity, a friend introduced me to Etrian Odyssey recently, Nioh, Dark Cloud, Pentiment and so much more in regard to video games.

Blanking on other types of media but I know there are quite a few. I get hooked on niche things all the time!

I almost always go battlemage -- Mystic Knight from Dragon's Dogma being one of my favourite implementations of this, only soured by how stats work in that game.

But if a game allows me to be a necromancer or lich, I'm going for it, especially if I can also combine melee.

I really enjoy summoner classes as well. Beasts upon ye!

Preferred weapon? Polearms...or floating tomes.

I want Dark Cloud 3 still.

Love how my cat has all these toys but only plays with two most of the time

A lot like me with my backlog of games; I could play something new or replay something I adore...

I have been working off-and-on on a RP forum for years and a part of me wants it to be semi-private or private—but I lack the connections I used to have and I really do also want to meet new people. I’m currently going Solo Admin on this, I would probably be open for more staff as it would make the idea of opening the place easier, but I don't know about that still. Ultimately I’m still lingering on whether or not I’ll ever actually open this...admittedly getting rather large passion project.

There are ways to deal with this yet I am really at a stalemate here mentally. But I have enjoyed working on the forum, even if it never actually sees the light, or only sees the presence of a few. I do quite adore what I have made so far, has the beloved skeleton of my “Dream RP” home. But maybe I will let it rest, alongside the other skeletons. Rotating them in my mind...the "what ifs", y'know?