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There's hope beyond this lone abyss.
General thought: it should be normalized for roleplayers to change their minds. <snip> ^^^^
It's okay to disappoint anyone -- they're allowed to feel whatever they feel in reaction, but that doesn't mean you did something wrong. Communicating things like this is a gift and I have gained so much respect for people who have been this honest with me about changing their minds and so on. The right types of people, maybe even the people who you will likely write with for the longest, or have the most fun with writing, will understand that sometimes things just don't work, or you change your mind, or any number of things. And by doing this, you can ensure who you're writing is more comfortable with being honest about these things with you, maybe you'll help someone realize that they don't have to drag themselves along as well.
It's hard to communicate stuff like this, but it's worth it especially because it's not easy. You need to be considerate of yourself, and by being considerate of yourself, you are also being considerate of others while not giving up your enjoyment of this hobby. Most people don't want to drag someone along to do something they don't want, there's been threads talking about fearing this very thing on this site before. Most people don't want you to be miserable when they write with you. And if someone does, somehow, seem to want that? That's on them. If someone lashes out at you for you just...changing your mind? That's on them to control how they handle and express their emotions, not you. But by trying to avoid any and all possible conflict entirely, you can end up causing more of it for yourself.
I'm adding something, somewhat related to the quote, but not entirely:
It's really hard to leave sites that have communities that have been welcoming, that I have even enjoyed writing on, but for various reasons can't stay. Every time I consider leaving without saying a word -- ghosting, as one may say -- but I know I'll regret it if I don't say anything. So, as anxious as I am about writing goodbye messages, or absence leaves, I can't see myself doing anything but doing that save for rare cases where I was genuinely treated badly. It's a relief, knowing I at least offered some sort of closure (I like to list what happens with my characters etc.). It's one of those things that make you think will get easier the more you do it, but nah, it's hard every time and worth it every time alongside. I don't think ghosting in the RPC is always that big of deal when other people do it, regardless of situation, but I just find this route more emotionally rewarding and as a way to better my communication skills. It does suck, of course, having to leave, or having people vanish, but it is what it is.
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